I got some things on my mind that linger deep within.
I don't know if I'll ever "get over it."
I don't know if I'll ever "Let it go."
But I do know one thing:
All of this pain wasn't for nothing.
These lessons I've learned,
The people who've done me wrong,
All those mistakes I've made,
The sadness I felt in my soul,
The times I felt so alone,
The misunderstandings,
My tears,
My anger,
The betrayal,
Everything led me to myself.
It led me to you.
The person who truly cherishes my words, my genuine spirit, & doesn't take me for granted.
It led me to self love.
I used to think that my life was of little significance.
The jaws of nihilism trying to take me away from reality.
But life is about people.
About relationships.
But most importantly, the relationship with yourself.
As men, most were never taught to love themselves.
Only to love & take care of others.
To provide.
To protect.
To lead.
To build.
To conquer.
But...........what about that man's well being?
What about his thoughts?
His emotions?
His sorrows?
His pain?
His anguish?
His rage?
His confusion?
His soul?
To the world, it doesn't matter unless he's fulfilling a programmed course.
But to me, a man is whoever he decides to be.
& for me?
I decide to live in truth.
To do what makes me happy.
To live for myself.
& to have people that truly love & care about me around.
Because this world is hard enough.
I don't need other people who don't wish me well around.
Facing the worst that could be said of me with grace,
& holding myself accountable at all times.
Asking for help when I truly need it.
So I thank myself.
For not quitting when it got hard.
For always looking for a solution.
For always holding myself to a higher standard.
For embracing all my flaws & insecurities.
For building myself mentally & emotionally.
Cause there's still more that needs to be done.
- Maãlík
