Once, He Became An Empress[COMPLETED]

Chapter 40

"Does it ever drive you crazy, just how fast the night changes~~" I sing a song while walking.

"Yeah, everything drives me crazy." I nodded to myself. Simula nang mawala si Lady Trinity ay nanahimik ang lahat.

Emperor Fisk announces to his people directly the truth about the Crown Prince's identity. The Empire must be disappointed about it and the news about Lady Whitestone's death remained a secret.

"Well, it cannot be helped." Iyon lang ang sagot niya noong nagkomento ako sa mga nangyayari at baka masaktan ang bata. The kid has to deal with the new challenge of accepting the fact that Fisk was not his real father. I visited him once, and he looks bothered but I know how strong of a child he is and Ruth is now there for him to explain their side.

I hope Odhran's adornment to the Emperor won't perish.

Ngayon si Lady Waylen at Lady Georgeton nalang ang natitira sa tabi ko and Lady Georgeton will soon leave before her matrimonial ceremony with sir Dewei.

Fisk and I, well something changed for the two of us. That dude was clingy on the bed--no, no, not what you are thinking. That dude, gustong gusto niya akong gawing suman sa mga braso niya, the way he embraces me--Urgh! It hurt my guts. Bakit ko ba ginagawa ito para sa kanya? Im not his sleeping pills! Nor his tranquilizer!

Though I was happy seeing him sleep peacefully now, habang tulog siya ay napakapayapa ng muka niya. How many nightmares did he have to chase everynight, that's aweful. Ngayon wala na ang malalaki at itim niyang eyebags and it hurt my ego to say this, but that man--is really handsome!

Ngayon maski si Dewei ay nasisilaw na sa glass skin niya. Nahiya naman ako na halos dilat tuwing madaling araw para bantayan matulog si Fisk at icheck ang hangin sa ilong niya kung humihinga pa ba siya.

"Pakiramdam ko nanunuyot na ang balat ko, ako naman ang magiging matandang ulikba nito."

"Nothing changes, you're still ugly though." Mabilis ang reflexes na tumaas ang middle finger ko papunta sa muka ni Leviathan na biglang sumulpot.

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad nang matanaw ko na ang pond kung saan ko nakita dito noon si Fisk at Trinity. Tsk. What a dark era. How dare she embraced the emperor.

That made me realize that maybe that time, she did something to him and Fisk played well.

"What are you planning to do here?" Tanong ni Lev habang nakamata din sa lawa.

Oh! May mga bibe na lumalangoy kasama ang nanay nila. May mga swan din na naglalampungan.

"Isn't this place magical?" Nakangiti kong wika. Nasira naman ang muka niya.

"From what point of view."

"Dumbass don't know how to appreciate things," I commented.

Lumapit ako sa tubig. It's crystal blue! And the shade are darker in one part, which must be a deeper area of this body of water. Nanalamin pa ako doon and boom, isang kagandahan ang nakita ko.

Something was calling me to go here while I was having a walk and enjoying the air breeze. I even ditched my servants.

I was about to touch the water when I heard the Emperor's voice.

"My love." Kumalabog ng napakalakas ang dibdib ko. He likes to tease me and I get used to it but this time hits differently, cause Lev is here with me and the bastard did not vanish! Mabilis na pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata but the jerk just gave me an annoying 'I-dont-know-what-you're-talking-about' look. Ah, masyado akong nagpapanic baka naka invisible mode naman pala ang mokong, defensive tayo masyado.

"Greetings, Your Majesty. Why are you here?" I pretend to smile naturally, don't know what I look like but it is fine. Aba't hindi talaga pumalag ang demonyo sa tabi ko.

"I was riding my horse when I saw my Empress talking with an unknown man." He coldly stares at the person behind me. Tumaas lahat ng balahibo pati buhok ko sa katawan sa pagkabigla. My eyes widen, Lev you bastard! Akala ko naka invisible mode ka ngayon hinayupak ka!

"It was a great day to be with the Empress, Your Majesty." Lev bowed. Parang tinakasan naman ako ng kaluluwa sa sinabi niya. Walang ibig sabihin ang salita niya pero parang sinabi niyang kabit ko siya sa harapan ni Fisk!

"My Empress is having a rendezvous with another man in a quietly unique place."

"Fisk it's not what you think." Calm your ass and let me explain.

"Then what it is my wife." He smiled like he's gonna go for the kill. Naging blangko ang muka ko. I don't know how to deal with this kind of situation, Lev was having fun but Fisk's irritated face scared the hell out of me. Should I run?

"H-he's just my personal knight." Anas ko. Come to think of it, hindi ako nagassign ng isa para pagsilbihan ako, All I had was a servant. Pinandilatan ko si Lev na mukang disappointed sa sinabi ko. Well, your fun ends now.

"Is that so, I have never seen a knight this close to the Empress."

"Well, now you see one." I rebutted.

"If you want to have a male concubine and form a harem of your own-"

"Not gonna do that!" Harem, I want women around, not an animalistic male alpha like you.

"--I will not allow it." He continued. Napamaang ako. I suddenly became speechless.

"There are only two of us in this marriage; not until we got kids to grow."
Tinapunan niya ng kakaibang tingin si Leviathan pagkatapos. My mouth slightly parted.

So he still expects me to have a child even though Im infertile and impossible to have one. That somehow hurt something inside me.

"Fisk you know that I-" I am infertile and a man inside this woman's body.

"It doesn't matter."

How can my heart beat for this man?
Sa pagihip ng hangin ay parang tinangay na din niyon ang pagkalalaki ko. I think Pfeiffer's emotions are consuming me which makes me no longer be myself.

"Your majesty...perhaps, are you gay?"
Parang biglang umihip ang malamig na hangin sa pagitan naming dalawa.

"Pfft-!" I glared at Lev na ilang metro na ang layo mula sa aming dalawa na nagpipigil ng tawa.

Fisk just unbelievably looks at me like he knows nothing about what I said.

"I mean. Do you like men than women? Aside from you hate every empress you wedded that was just sent to kill you, do you prefer men over ladies?" My hands are fidgeting at my back.

"Pffft-" now it's Fisk's turn.

"Anything is fine as long as it meant that I could be with you, it doesn't matter cause I prefer you over anyone else no matter what form you take." Hinaplos niya ang ulo ko. I just look directly into his eyes. He's beautiful.

I didn't realize it until now, I never felt something like love towards another person more than just like them because I adored them. Is it too late?

Mom, dad... I am sorry but I think this world makes me gay. I don't want to accept it but it's hard to deny when my feelings are too strong for this person.

He might just see me as his tranquil zone and will become useless once he becomes fine on his own, nevertheless, I became happy.

I chuckled. Kung ganito lang pala kagaan na aminin sa sarili ang nararamdaman ko ay ginawa ko na dati pa.

Nakapagdesisyon na ako.

I will stay with this person even though the contract between me and Lev is over, pero mukang matagagalan pa iyon dahil mukang hindi pa ako nakakapasok sa puso ng lalaking ito. Maybe I will make him fall for me one of these days.

Ahh...this is what you called greed and desire. What a strange feeling to fulfill.