Put That in My Mouth, or What?/Adam 'Abunda' Ababwa x Tommy Tate

Put That in My Mouth, or What?

It had been three weeks since everything happened; since he found Adam in his trunk and shot him, sent him in ICU. Thinking back to then now, Tommy knows he fucked up, which is not something he tends to do. He is calm and cold about this things but most importantly he is careful. Yet he had enough of everything that day.

He was getting sick of no one having an ounce of respect for him, taking everything he says as a joke of some kinds. Dwayne's been getting on his nerves for ages anyway and then they've been lying and keeping secrets from him for the whole day. So to find Adam in his trunk, his most trusted man, his second in command, eavesdropping a conversation he was having had been like a slap to his face.

And yet Adam didn't take a step back. He took everything Tommy said as a joke, as everyone always did. Said 'You're gonna put that in my mouth, or what?' Which was a mistake on Adam's end because Tommy did put it in his mouth, shooting his best friend, part of his family, in the face with a fucking shotgun, almost killing him and leaving the Block without looking back for a second. Tommy didn't need to hear all the shit Dwayne's been giving him to know that he had fucked up and needed to apologise to Adam.

Yet Adam wasn't up to seeing Tommy's ugly mug yet and Tommy could understand why, neither was he up to seeing it after all. He hasn't been able look at a mirror for a while now and it wasn't helping that everyone in the Mandem was a bit more tense around him. It was something Tommy used to wish, to have that respect from them, but this wasn't the way to reach that outcome and he knew it now. Tommy knew he did the right thing in a way, but things didn't have to reach that point at the end of the day.

Adam has send him a message, telling him he was finally ready to see him. Yet Tommy wasn't ready to see Adam but it wasn't his decision to make, it was Adam's and he had no choice but to obey. It was the least he could do for Adam. His hands has been sweating since he saw the message and now he was at the place they were supposed to meet, sitting in his car, watching Adam on the dock.

Adam was looking at the sea, shoulders tight and tense, yet looking brave. Well, there was nothing to be scared of but Adam didn't know that yet. Everyone thought that Tommy would take the chain away from Adam but Tommy already did enough damage to him, he couldn't take the chain, wouldn't. There was also the chance of taking his second in command title but there wasn't anybody that could fill that space. Tommy was stupid for not thinking it . What if he had killed him, then what? Well, it wasn't any use to get worked over the past now. He already did that for a week. Moses was too soft, Patar was too good at being the third in command, Eli was quiet, Ved was careless, Dwayne was unresponsible, Dean was egoist, Vince would break under the pressure, Sparky just didn't give a shit. Well, Tommy should've known that before shooting Adam. Even though he didn't plan to take the title from him, if Adam gave up on it, Tommy couldn't do anything.

Tommy took a deep breath and got out of the car, shutting the door behind him. The noise made him flinch but Adam didn't even turn around. Tommy crossed his arms, trying to hide his shaking hands. It was supposed to be Adam who was nervous and Tommy who was calm, yet it was the exact opposite and it annoyed the fuck out of Tommy. He stood next to Adam, looking at him, waiting for him to turn. They both took their masks off.

"Long time, bro."

"Yeah, I know. Glad you're alright, glad you're good."

The rest of the conversation was a bit of a blur. Adam explained himself; how he was having a hard time mentally -Tommy thought he didn't show it at all- and how he wasn't trying to spy on Patar and him. Tommy said he knew it, yet it didn't mean that there wasn't a chance of it. Tommy got to apologise too and they sometimes kept going in circles but they managed to come to a agreement at the end, or as close as they could get to it.

"I'll come back. I'll do what I need to do. I'll do it for the gang."

"Good shit."

Tommy said with a nod of his head. Yet didn't turn to look back at his eyes, instead keeping them on his feet. He felt like he needed someone to hold him, maybe Moses, as Adam wasn't an option anymore. The realisation that things wouldn't ever be the same, that he fucked up big time, had started to only sink now.

"Don't mean we're okay though, T. I'm not gonna hold it against you."

"Why would you say that there and then, that's the worst thing you could've said."

Tommy didn't need Adam to remind him that things wouldn't be okay. Tommy tried to soften the mood with a giggle, stroking his beard. Adam didn't mind him, just kept talking.

"I'm gonna respect you, as a leader. That don't mean we're okay and with time that might change, it will change. At the end of the day I do love you, I've been through everything with you. You brought me back, you made me the person I am today.

There's always light at the end of that tunnel. I spoke to a few of the boys. I need to apologise about some shit because I know what I've done wrong."

Everytime Adam said that they weren't okay it made something inside Tommy burn yet he couldn't say nothing as he knew Adam was fully right. It gave him some hope though when he said that it might change, that he still loved him. Tommy could feel the tears attacking his eyes and knew it was time for him to leave, to run.

"Alright."

He turned around, going back to his car. His sight was so blurred that he couldn't see anything. He felt the arm around his wrist the same time the first tear fell from a side of his eye, going through his neck. He didn't turn back, he didn't deserve Adam to comfort him, didn't deserve his concern.

Yet even though Tommy tried to get rid of his hold, Adam didn't let go of him. He turned Tommy towards himself and held him tightly. One arm around his back and the other on his face, wiping his tears. Tommy didn't know how Adam could still be this brave, could still hold him and tell him he loved him. Tommy didn't have the right to reject him. So he let go of himself, put his head to his shoulder and buried his face to his neck.

"Sorry, man. I just- sorry. I'm so sorry."

Adam kept stroking his back and whispering that everything would be okay. Tommy felt all the tension that's been bottling up inside his body for three weeks leave him slowly. He didn't even realize he's been feeling this way. After all, he had Moses to calm him and he would always have Moses no matter what.

Adam then let go of him, pushed him kindly from his chest. Then shoved him to the floor by his shoulders. Tommy knew where this was going, it didn't take a genius to realize and normally it would perhaps hurt Tommy's ego but he knew Adam had every right for it, he deserved it, he deserved to take advantage of Tommy.

He didn't wait for Tommy to move, he opened his trousers and pulled them down slightly along with his pants. He then pushed the hat on top of Tommy's head away and took a hold of his hair, directing his mouth to his cock and smirked.

"Gonna put that in your mouth, or what T?"