Love Hate Relationship Mattia Polibio x y/n reader

Ruin Me

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Time Skip
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2 years later

Y/n is 19 moved out of jersey left Canada and moved to London just for a bit then moved back to Canada then that when shit went downhill like damn let a girl BREATHE. The thing is I have so much explain-
Oh and Mattia yeah we broke up it was bad bad that's why I left jersey but him being a little stalker followed me until he gave up eventually and moved on like for a fucking day. When I said I fell hard for him I didn't lie at all about my feelings. One hundred percent was in love so was I but his "career" got in the way so did some girls once again yes but they completely failed. We officially broke up but it was mutual but the thing is we would still see each other all the time. Like I said before he was my first and my true first love so it was hard but I eventually got over it. I was invited to a party but I said no and from what I heard Mattia was back to being a jersey boy but he kept it in his pants but he uses protective stuff like he's trying his best to have sex without getting the right girl pregnant after some "internet scandals" went on and on about him. Honestly I didn't give a fuck now but back then honey I was a heartbroken bitch for no reason. We ended on good terms but I'm here like he cheated, he didn't surprisingly but it was so unhealthy for us to be around each-other it was just terrible that how everyone stopped talking months after we broke up. When high school ended it was literally sex everyday but we're not a couple but we're still together and your not allowed to be with other guys but I can be with other girls but I own you basically since you lost your virginity to me. Those kind of vibes everywhere it was fun I loved the attention I would get from him the sex become more rough and it just felt so fucking good he never begged for head he would be begging to give me head and how could I ever refuse. The times where I tried to make his jealous but that never worked because I would do that on purpose. I later found out Mattia told people that I was his his still like what. No guy tried to flirt with me either because of Mattia and his impact on people, how are people scared of that six foot Italian-Mexican cutie pie. Sadly he has very bad anger issues and somehow I ended up being his love. Yeah the saying I used to say she fell first but he fell harder yup that was true for sure. While I was in Canada specifically Vancouver in my apartment I forgot I gave him a key like how did I forget to ask for it back anyways he makes his way in one day and say did you miss me while I was about to make breakfast for myself. Then we sat down and had breakfast I asked him why he came here. "I came here obviously because I love you and want to be with you I swear". Trust me I was weak for this man anything he says was music to my ears not just any music it was that music that never leaves your head and stays in there for a while. He stayed with me for a bit until I got a pregnancy scare. What's surprising is that with other girls he uses so much protection or so he claims but he doesn't seem to have any but we still continued. After we got cleaned up we cuddled and he explained his sex love with me while lighting up a joint as if we're in a fucking movie. He used condoms with other girls because apparently with a condom you don't feel much with them for the guys. I was like why are you telling me this. "I don't want you to think I'm getting girls pregnant or having sex all the time because I lied I've been miserable without you and your the only girl that I'll ever want to do stuff with". The fact that I stupidly believed him like he wouldn't leave as soon as I told him my period was late he left to go back to jersey. Wow that is actually so funny but I don't have a child do not want to have one until I have my life sorted out. Mattia on the other hand was a mess he become an alcoholic and then eventually got his life sorted out. We bumped into each other other in London I saw him with a girl while I was taking pictures as if I went to Hogwarts.
When he saw me his facial expressions changed and he let go of her hand and came for me I started speed walking my way back inside my building and he somehow was still following me. My heart told me to stop but my brain told me to run and unlock my door. I listened to my brain but I was never faster than him he came inside right after me. "Mattia what's your problem man we've been over forever now give it a rest.
"Aren't you happy to see me my love I know it's crazy but it has to be faith". Things eventually lead to what you know what they lead to and I really didn't want him to leave but he said he can't be in a relationship so that broke me even more than before like are you fucking kidding me after everything but still he won't get back together but he comes back because I let him. I changed my mindset really fast after that night he left I sold the flat and made my way back to Canada and went completely ghost on everyone and everything. I moved apartments same building different floor and not going to lie way better than the first one. I got my locks extra strong on my doors and I started working out and running. One thing that really truly helped me through everything though was the weed.
The weed was the only thing that really helped me but I only did a little I don't rely on it like I used to but meeting old friends from other high schools and old friends, started parting, got a job, completely forgot that Mattia existed. My parents decided to settle down in jersey though but I don't talk to them same with my siblings. I really didn't believe in the breakup blowup but I've been getting hit up more and more on the daily and I'm starting to like the attention but I want to unblock Mattia as well but that would lead down a whole different path once again and I'm doing perfectly fine as I should and I'm not going to let some dumb boy Ruin me, my progress, or my life.

A/N: I'm done high school and I've been in depression ever since.