Lover Boys

goodbye

Wooyoung

"Really after all this time you wanna end things now?" I yelled slamming the front door

"Yes! For fucks sakes I do" he shouted

"Why? I thought we had something good going and now you wanna fucking leave? What's the reason huh?"

"Do you really wanna know?" He yelled turning to face me

"Yes! For what ever reason I do! I want to know why all the sudden you're leaving!"

"Fine! It's cause I don't love you anymore"

"You what?"

"I said I don't love you anymore. Is that what you wanted? That's what you wanted to hear right?"

"Th- that's not true. You do love me, don't say that" I started to cry

"No.. No I don't and I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't love you. I'm sorry I don't want us anymore. I'm sorry for leaving. I'm sorry you dont make me happy. God I'm so sorry." He said coming closer

"You do love me please you can't. You can't leave me. I don't want you too. Stay please. Tell me this was all a prank and you aren't leaving" I cried in his chest

"I wish it was I'm sorry. I can't see you cry over someone that doesn't love you. I can't just stay here and not love you. You need someone better. Someone to make you happy. I can't do that." He said hugging me

All I did was cry. Even if I wanted to hit him I couldn't. How could someone do this. How long has he been doing this. Did he ever really love me. Was I just someone to play around with. Did he ever mean any of the things he said.

He let go of me and went into our shared bedroom. I quickly followed him to see what he was doing. As I entered the room I saw him packing his things while silently crying

"I never meant to hurt you. I'm serious." he stated

I cried while watching him pack his things. He went into the bathroom and came out with his toothbrush, comb and gel. He's really leaving.

"Stop crying..Please.."

"What else am I supposed to do San? Laugh? Smile? Be happy youre fucking leaving? No! I can't do that. I can't just sit around and act like everything's ok when you're packing your shit infront of me! God I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid for falling for someone like you. How could I be so ignorant. You're such a loser and yet I'm crying over you! You're just standing there like you never meant what you said. How you held me when I cried, how you were always there when I needed someone, how you laughed at my annoying ass jokes, how you whispered all those sweet words into my ear on our dates. All of that meant nothing! Nothing! And yet here I am crying like an idiot..." I screamed

"It did mean something." He stood up

"Yah? If it did then unpack your shit and stay!"

"I can't"

"Exactly it meant nothing!"

He zipped up his suit case and walked out the room. I walked out after him as he was putting on his shoes. He looked up and started walking towards me.

"I'm so, so, so fucking sorry" he said and kissed me.

I grabbed onto his sleeve as I kissed back. It didn't last for more than 5 seconds. He pulled away and headed for the door.

"Please I love you" I whispered hoping he could still hear me.

"I'm sorry" he replied

"Goodbye" he said and opened the door. He grabbed his suitcase and walked out making sure the door slammed behind him

No one pov

He quickly fell to the floor sobbing in his hands. He never imagined this day would come. He felt like his world had fallin to pieces and there was nothing more for him. He thought he had the perfect life, family, partner. He thought he had everything. Till today. He choked on his spit as he cried even harder at the scene playing over again. He wished he could go back in time and stop this from happening. Fix his ways. Change to be a better person for San. A better version of himself. A version that could be loved. He knew it wasn't possible but he just hoped that the man would come back into this house and hug him till he turned blue in the face. Tell him he was coming back and how he made a mistake. And the worst part is he'd let him. He'd let him come back and ruin his life over and over. He'd let the man do anything to him just to be with him again. No words could tell you how much he loved this man. It wasn't a healthy mindset he had going on but he can't let go and he won't let go.

He fell asleep on the hard wood floor crying and thinking about what he did wrong or how he could fix this. He knew he couldn't but he thought he could.

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Uhhhh so how we feelin bout this?? Idk if I like it.. it's my first time writing somethin like this so idk if it's good or what LOL!!! N e ways see you next time hope you enjoyed!!