Amnestic love (König x f!Reader)

4. Drunk urge

Both of you sat at the bench outside barrack. König wasn't saying anything, while you drank slowly your beer. You started to wonder, how he planned on drinking with his sniper hood on. It surprised you when he raised it only to uncover his lips. You didn't even tried to hide the fact that you're looking at him, his mouth had scar on his upper lip, it wasn't big, but thick, it ended somewhere under his hood. You also noticed that he must have shaved few days ago, his facial hair was short, probably rough. You looked away a little embarrassed when he pulled down his hood.

"Sorry, I didn't meant to stare" you said felling a little awkward. He only shrugged his arms.

"Don't worry, you saw my face before amnesia" he said. "Meine Muse, you still don't remember much, right?" You shook your head and looked into his eyes, they were full of care, in this poor light you couldn't say if they were grey or blue. "I noticed.. when we were talking about the bet, that you actually had something on your mind." Your body tensed a little. You were that easy to read? "Wenn ich fragen darf, was hast du dir dabei gedacht?"

"König... I don't speak German" you said laughing nervously. You could see that he felt a little stupid about that. You already knew what he wanted to hear from you.

"Sorry" he cleared his throat, putting his hand on the back of his neck. "If I can ask, what you had in your mind? You can tell me." He assured you, not breaking eye contact.

"Oh..." you looked away. What if he find your idea as rude? Or what if he will hate you after that? You didn't knew him too well, but even so, he seemed to be a good guy and you wanted to be his friend. "I was thinking.. If I could see your face" you said still not looking at him.

He only took your beer from you and putted it on the ground next to his. You looked at him not really understanding what he's doing. He gently took your hands and placed it under his sniper hood. You could feel under your fingers his cheeks.

"You can take it off of me if you're curious, meine Liebe" he said it so softly that your heart skipped the beat hearing him. Your lips felt dry all of the sudden. Slowly you pulled his hood up, high enough so you could see his face, but not enough to take it off completely.

He was... Handsome. Strong cheekbones slightly covered by facial hairs and little scars. You could see that the biggest scar crossed the bridge of his nose and ended under his right eye, you could easily say that the nose was broken a lot of times, but that doesn't took off his attractiveness. Some of his hair fall on his cheek, they were brown, longer than you expected, most of the man here had very short hair so it was nice change. He had paint around his now closed eyes. You started stroking your thumb over his skin. He opened his eyes, looking at you a little unsure. He putted his hand on one of yours, gently leaned on it and left a gentle kiss on the inside of your hand.

"You are very handsome König" you whispered feeling tears in your eyes. You felt lost and sad, but didn't even knew why. With your free hand you wiped tears from your cheeks, sobbing silently. "I don't even know why I'm crying but I feel like I forgot something so dearest and important to me." You said with shaky voice. He only looked at you with worry. He let go of your hand to hug you, you didn't push him away, you sobbed in his chest, confused by your own reaction. He putted soft kiss on the top of your head, covering his face again.

"I'm sorry, meine Muse, I didn't mean to make you cry" he whispered to you after few minutes, when you started to calm down. You only shook your head taking deep breath, moving back from him.

"No, no, it's not you" you said quietly, still confused. You took your beer from the ground, drinking half of it in one go. You felt stupid. Weak. König wiped tear that was left on your cheek. You didn't want to look into his eyes, you knew what you'll see. The worry, pity, maybe. "I'm sorry, I'll go back inside" you said getting up, leaving him alone on the bench. On your back to Aksel and Roze you took another beer from the table with you. You sat down not looking at them. You cleared your throat before speaking. "So, what are we playing now?"

"You took your time" Roze said looking at you a little suspicious. "We're playing macao game, you know it?" she asked. You nodded finishing your first beer, putting bottle under the table. "Hey, everything okey?" she asked worried. She looked at Aksel who also was looking at you.

"Yes, I'm fine, don't worry guys" you smiled slightly just to not worry them, they don't have to know what happened, because how can they get it if you don't understand it yourself? "Let's play."

They were still worried, you knew it even if they tried to act normal. When you looked around, König was nowhere to be found. You felt bad for how you reacted, but what can you say? You were scared as fuck! After few other games and way too much alcohol Roze said she's going to bed and you agreed to this idea. Maybe some sleep will make all of this easier? You took two buttles of beer with you to your room, all you wanted right now was to get even more drunk than you already were and forget about your stupid reactions from today's evening. You knew it wasn't big deal, but you hurt König, and that was last thing you wanted.

While drinking, sitting on the floor, your back against side of your bed, you looked at rock König gave you. You also looked at the rest of pretty rocks you had in your room. You tilted your head back against mattress. Was that possible that this big soft man gave them to you? What were you for each other before your amnesia? Opening another bottle of alcohol you heard knocking to your doors, you checked time, it was super late, was that Roze? It was only logical possibility. You got up, almost tripping on your own legs, putting bottle on the night stand.

"Stay" you said to it and laughed quietly, it was stupid, where it supposed to go? You moved to your doors, opened them and leaned on the doorframe just to keep yourself from falling. "Yes?" You asked with drunk voice. You weren't looking at the person in front of you.

"Muse.. You're way too drunk" you heard König's voice. You looked up at him, he gently putted his hands under your armpits and picked you up with no problem.

"Waah, you're soooo strong" you laughed when he came inside, closing doors after him. He putted you down on your bed, so you could sit on it. "What are you doing here? I treated you like shit earlier" you said reaching for your beer. He sat on the floor in front of you, with a second of hesitating he took off his sniper hood, looking at you. You could see how his hair looked right now. They were a little longer, thin, front reaching to his chin, most of his hair were tied on the back of his head.

"I was worried" he said shortly, looking at you. "I hope you're not drinking because of what happened?" he said looking how you drank slowly. You handed him the bottle, so he also can drink a little. He took a sip after a second. You landed on your back on bed.

"I just.. I shouldn't react like that, I was confused... scared after this sudden cry." You explained to him, placing your hands on your head. "I just... I feel like we were close, but I can't remember shit" your voice broke a little. "And everybody are looking at me like they want to say something but they don't do it!" You covered your face with your hands, once again feeling helpless, you were sick of this feeling. König putted beer on the nightstand and sat next to you, not saying anything. You felt his finger brushing against your hands.

"Vergib mir, meine Liebe" he whispered. "There's just... something we can't say, no one want to scare you" he placed his hand on mattress. You uncovered your face to look at him, he wasn't looking at you, but at the rocks on the shelf.

"You gave those to me?" the question left your mouth before you could think about it. He only nodded in respond. You chuckled silently. "Like a penguin" you sat up, placing your head on his shoulder. "Did you know that penguins are giving rocks to their loved one? And they pair till the end of their life... that's so romantic when you think about it like that.." words were leaving your mouth without you even thinking about it. You reached your beer when you heard quiet words from men.

"Ich liebe dich" he said looking at the back of your head. You didn't understood him, you were too drunk to even try. You looked at him smiling a little. "Ich bin so traurig, dass du dich nicht an mich erinnerst, aber ich werde auf dich warten, meine Liebe" you giggled silently.

"König, I don't understand German you dummy" you leaned over to him, hand on his thigh, still smiling, your eyelids a little closed, looking at his lips. You felt the urge to kiss him, but you knew that this is just drunk urge.

"It's fine" he said smiling to you back, his hand placed on your cheek.