Deadly Nightshade MXMXM

I

Do you remember that sensation of crumbling into pieces, the suffocating feeling of being trapped with no chance of liberation?
You find yourself unable to rely on anybody, not even those who brought you into this world.

You find yourself isolated in a realm that you never intended to inhabit.
Struggling with the ache of never being truly loved or embraced for simply being yourself.
Wishing for it to be over soon so you could finally rest.
Finally, be at peace.

My childhood was far from normal, devoid of the joy and love depicted in fairytales. I wish I could say I had two loving parents, but that was not my reality.

My life, on the other hand, was a complete shambles - it felt like living in a never-ending nightmare. The alpha had been subjecting me to abuse for years, and I had grown desensitized to the agony. I had even lost sight of what I looked like with no bruises or scars on my body.

I had forgotten how to smile.

I felt repulsed every time I caught sight of my reflection. Seeing myself filled me with an overwhelming sense of disgust, making me feel like I was unworthy and worthless.

They all hated me because I was different.
Being different isn't good.

I had never felt love for myself or believed that anyone could love me. I felt like I was just a mistake.

They never wanted me.

This morning, I woke up before the sun had even risen. I had a long list of chores to complete, and I knew I had to hurry to finish them before he woke up. However, I found it difficult to move quickly due to my fatigue.

I had made breakfast for the whole pack alone, I was scared of sneaking some food for
myself, the last time I did that the alpha almost killed me.

They despised me for the simplest reason - I was different. I didn't conform to their expectations. While others could easily transform into wolves, I remained unable to do so, leading me to feel utterly worthless.

I couldn't defend myself, I let them walk over me over.
Am I ever going to find the strength to stand up for myself? Unfortunately, the answer is no. I lack the physical and mental fortitude to do so.

I had finally done everything, all I wanted to do was sleep.

As I turned to put the final dishes away, a dense, suffocating presence enveloped me, making it difficult to draw in a breath. It felt as if the moon goddess had forsaken me, and I couldn't shake the feeling that someone was watching me
The fear grips me, making it difficult to even glance over my shoulder. Despite knowing that I haven't done anything wrong, I can't help but brace myself for the worst. It's as if I believe that's the only outcome I deserve.

On my 15th birthday, I was eagerly anticipating my wolf being declared an alpha. It was supposed to be a moment of triumph, but everything changed when they discovered that I was an omega. My entire world was turned upside down in an instant.

He was slowly creeping up behind me touching me, I felt like the world was crumbling around me but at the same time, I felt numb inside a kind of numbness that you would only feel if you died.

I didn't even need to look back already feeling his hard-on pressing up against me, "strip" Too scared to go against his command I complied quickly not daring to even turn around and look him in the eye.
The feeling I felt him push his cock right into me without warning, tears swelling in my eyes and all I did was just take it but I was getting tired and my vision was getting blurry, I felt myself falling and everything going black.

After what felt like forever I felt myself waking up with a pounding headache, trying to get myself off the ground but being unsuccessful I felt so weak like my body had been through some intense training, finally after gaining somewhat of my cautiousness I looked around only to find the alphas brother dead in a pool of blood and my hands covered with blood and my body soaked in it.

What happened?
I could feel my anxiety building up.
What did I do?
"Run" I heard a voice say.