The water hashira and the flame little brother

Chapter 6

A month had past senjuro ended up staying with giyuu he was a coward and scared to leave and he didn't want to stay with his father scared of what he would do to him living with giyuu wasn't the worse sometimes senjuro pretty sure he forgets he exists giyuu is quiet really quiet never talk unless he really needs to but he doesn't mind because he's also socially awkward giyuu is mostly on mission or patrolling so senjuro mostly by himself which he also doesn't mind

Senjuro started writing in a journal explaining the things he do and how he is feeling most of the pages is about him missing his brother he would cry whenever he wrote about him

Senjuro had a scheduled he followed cook breakfast for himself and giyuu if he's there take a shower take a walk in the forest but makes sure he's careful and then he would cook dinner for himself and giyuu if he still there and then sleep and repeat that what he had been doing for a month a normal boring schedule it never changes unless giyuu stays for more than a day which is rare senjuro calls it the awkward day because being around giyuu is really awkward but pleasant

Those days he would watch giyuu train for hours until the sun finally sets senjuro liked those days he felt like he was starting at a lovely lake watching a reflection that wasn't his own it also made senjuro sad because he wished he could be as beautiful and strong as giyuu he was like a pond no a water that never got angry or upset he never really showed any emotions

Senjuro sighed closing his journal he was alone giyuu had left saying he had to run some errands senjuro was pretty upset he felt like he had grown closer to giyuu even if they never spoke much he wanted them to get along better or at least have a conversation that lasted more then a hour but those times were rare

Senjuro had nothing to do he already had breakfast and he was starting to get tired of his same routine

He kinda missed his own home sure call him dumb but he didn't miss it for his father no he just missed the fact get always had something to do so he could get away from his thoughts senjuro was always busy cleaning cooking buying food or sake for his father and then the cycle repeats

Now that he's thinking about it his whole life had been one big cycle never changing always the same

Senjuro only 14 which mean 14 years wasted doing nothing but living in that same shirt cycle he wonder how he put up with it for so long

He wished he was a swordsman maybe he could have fought with his brother maybe he could have made more friends and their father wouldn't be so disappointed

He needed to clear his head maybe he should visit the garden

Senjuro closed his journal and hid it in a broken floor board he closed the door behind him sliding it slowly so to not cause to much noise even though he was the only one here

The garden was quiet and nice except from the loud waterfall but he tuned it out a while ago he sat on the ground with his knees to his chest he didn't care about getting his outfit dirty it didn't matter no one would scold him for it giyuu would probably turn a blind eye anyway

He just sat there not thinking of anything for some reason his mind was blank for once in a long time

He just watched the water as it fell making a "drip drip" sound it didn't remind him of kyoujurou his brother which he was thankful he didn't need any distraction's he didn't feel any emotion something he liked because senjuro was tired of being angry tired of being upset disappointed he didn't want to cry anymore it made him feel weak weaker then he already were

Crying made him hate himself even more then he already did

He closed his eyes the sun was beaming on him so brightly and the wind hit the side of his face perfectly it was a nice day he thought to himself a really nice day