I was Gone so Forget me

Chapter Five: Other Complications

Resse's POV

Its been about three or four years since Xylee & her friends left and I still dont how I should feel about this, I mean I was raised believing the whole mate thing and I know Xylee has too I was there, I should know. But the thing is I know she wanted me to be her mate, so why did she want me to reject her? Why did she leave? I wish I could talk to her one more time, just once to see what happened, if I did something, and if so how can I make it right?
The same thoughts have been in my head for years and I can't get over her, I wish I told her sooner, the day I found out, why didn't I tell her!?
Your starting to lose it Resse. Vinnie my wolf said disaprovingly.
Well I'm sorry and most of my emotions about this is because of you!
That's only a matter of opion and besides your the one who agreed to it. He said sadly
But!... I got cut off by loud footsteps outside my bedroom.
Knock Knock
"Who is it?" I asked loudly from my bed.
"Its me babe." I squeaky voice familiar voice called out.
"Come in." I said as Trish my girlfriend came in. I sat up not bothering to put on a shirt. "Hey," I grabbed her waist and kissed her softly on the lips. Trish purred which is also one of the things that I'm emotionally and physically confused about. Why? Is because I love her, not as much as I should have, but enough for me to tolerate her and have around me.
Grrr... Vinnie growled He never really liked Trish, he only let's her around because of his needs he can't get from his...our mate.
It must have showed on my face because Trish looked at me weirdly.
"What's wrong?" She asked worriedly.
"Nothing." I shook my head.
"Your still thinking about that bitch aren't you!?" She yelled as she jumped away from me.
I growled so loud she flinched and held her head down. "Out!" Trish whimpered and ran out crying.
Why? Just why do we keep her around? Vinne complained more then asking a question.
We!? I'm the one doing this for you!!!
I never asked for her!
You asked for someone to give you full attention and she does that, even if she is a needy, selfcentered bitch.
Well...
I cut him off walking down stairs careful not to wake any of my pack members or Xandi's.

(Let me be the honor of telling you why we are together.
The Silver Blood Shed (mine) and The Black Moon's (Xandi's) have lived as one for along time considered the fact that that we're both different packs. We did have different pack houses but there was a fire back when I was about 5ish and when we were reconstructing my dad and uncle John (that's what I'm suppose to call him) agreed that it would save a lot of money if we made one giant pack house for everyone to live in since we were all pretty close to each other.
Speaking of being one, we're not even considered two packs anymore, so somehow people collided our names to
The Silver Black Moon , stupid I know. Anyway we don't consider being one outsiders do so if some pack needs our help they call both of us, not that we mind. We all get along fine and no one messes with us because we are the biggest and strongest pack in the whole world.)