Dear Diary,
I have been feeling empty. Not just today but in the past 2 weeks or so. Idk if this is bc I stopped taking my medication or if it is the fact that I need to catch up on a lot of missed schoolwork. It could also be the fact that I've been with mom for the holidays. Idk why ,but being here again with my family kinda stresses me out.
Like yeah I wanna spend time with them, but on the other hand they all just drain me from the last bit of energy I have left from school.
I mean I need to learn like 3 chapters of accounting until my test next Friday, math bc I have also a test on Friday and I'm not even gonna start with Italian. How am I supposed to teach myself a whole new language?
Also Grandma and Grandpa are surprisingly understanding at the moment. That feels kinda weird bc they NEVER and I mean NEVER tried to even partly understand me.
Ofc I didn't tell anyone about the issues with my body I've been having. It can't be that I always over or undereat. Today it was overeating, but I felt so sick after that I literally threw everything back up. I wanna cry so bad rn but I just can't. Sometimes I wanna break down. Maybe that would help at least a little. It would feel so good to let everything out for once, but I'm afraid that I'd hurt people if I would. I'm so fucking terrible of loosing anyone tbh, but I also don't want to keep hurting myself.
Let's hope tomorrow will be better
~L.P.♡
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my Diary
RandomThis book is just a little venting mechanism for me. this will contain sensitive topics Just as the title says just a diary of a regular girl in this fucked up world
