My Little Book of Poetry

My First Love

What do you do when you're angry or sad to improve your mood?

Answers like, play sports, hit something, cry, do drugs, are not uncommon answers of my generation

But me, my answer?

I take to the stage
It's always been my space
A place where I soar above everything

It's seems silly that singing and dancing can make you feel better but it's more than that

Every song has a feeling
A character you play that shows your innermost thoughts

The first time took to that stage
I felt home, I felt safe
In my own little world
Where I can be anyone I want

I could be a sultry 1920s showgirl
I could be a highschooler finding love
I could be a girl mourning the loss of her brother
I could be a woman scorned by the one she loved

I am the star of the show

Some would say I'm crazy
That being on stage is terrifying
But I feel more at home there than anywhere else

Theater was my first love
And you never forget your first
I will always love it

The rehearsals with your castmates
The inside jokes that you have with them
Opening night when you can show what you've been doing
Showing a product that you can be proud of

The stress of learning your lines
The first full run
Seeing your costumes for the first time
Putting on makeup and singing with friends
The whirlwind of chaos hours before the show

And the moment I step out on stage, the world becomes silent

And I can shine

When I step off the stage I am often greeted with praise and adoration

And it makes me feel good
But not in the selfish way
It makes me feel good to be apart of something bigger than myself

I am theatre kid
But those words mean something different to those who understand us

Why we break out in song at every word

Why we dance anywhere we can

Why we spend so much time at rehearsal

Why we cry when we close the show
Why we sob for our last time on stage

To us it's more than just a place
To us it's our chance to be free

And

To me
It's home