Dangerous[ An MJ Fanfic ]

Four

"I was naive , I was gullible . I trusted him. I made a deal with the devil

For the pass five minutes, I've been sitting on this boulder like amp waiting for some type of movement from the silver knob of the door  .

This feels worse than waiting to find out rather I passed on to the next course . Worst than waiting at the doctor's office for blood work.

The impending doom I felt was something that was always there now just more prominent. I was naive , I was gullible . I trusted him. I made a deal with the devil .

You'd think life would turn out better when it was so poor in the beginning, but the only thing that trailed behind were mistakes from premature choices .

Without my mother or any luck of getting ahold of my father, Child Protective Services had no choice but to put me in the care of my aunt Francis.

She'd have custody of me until my mom was to be released after being put through rehab.

Days always seemed to be like a rainy day in Seattle. The long days awaiting my mom' s return seemed to drag on . Then those days turned into months and eventually, years.
I missed my mom . I missed home, my old school, that one friend I did have. I missed my dad . I missed how things used to be, when my mother wasn't under her demons. I didn't like playing house with a woman who wasn't my mother. I couldn't stand having a standoff-ish male figure, who was nothing like my dad. It just never sat right with me . Nothing about it felt normal and eventually it just left me feeling empty. No matter how much I prayed, it was almost like papa didn't hear me anymore. The hopes of my mother's return died all because I felt like she was. It's been 9 years since I've seen her. If she hasn't come back now, she never will. That's when my love for my mom died . I hated her. She left me . She didn't love me nor care about me.

    A lot has changed since then. My relationship with my aunt derailed once I got midway into school. After she became pregnant with children of her own, it wasn't long before the money to support me during school dwindled and eventually stop rolling in.

Luckily, I met Yaris in what seemed like perfect timing. Prior to my situation with being in debt with the school, we were roommates, but she eventually left school for her own reasons.

If it seemed like I had no one, I  could rely on her. She was like a guardian, but more of a sister.

I never knew why she was so hopeful or why she took so much of a chance investing in me . Maybe she felt sorry, but I was grateful she did.

She's been more than helpful. I just couldn't bare to see her pulling the weight for me for another semester even if it is the last one .

'Dog Walker/Sitter needed . MUST be pet friendly . Caring for 2 beautiful Rottweilers for 3.99/hour .'

They must be insane if they think somebody is going to watch those two hellhounds for 3.99 an hour .

Paper editor 7.99/hour MUST HAVE JOURNALING CREDITABLY for a bachelors degree .

Custodian 4.87/hour??? That's not enough to clean those nasty toilets in Hightower.

I've been looking through classifieds thoroughly for two days and still no luck. I'm determined to find a job though. So determined, I'm hell bent on picking something today.