i woke up as the bell rang. "shit" i said as i got up and grabbed my bag with a quick walk out of the room. i did not want to be here, with the whole situation with my friends and ash i was too tired of people already, i needed to smoke. i walked straight to the doors that led to the side of the school, no one ever checked there and if they did it was rare so i always went here to smoke. i leaned up against the side of the school and pulled my pen out of my bra and did my thing, until i heard the doors open and saw the security guard standing there. "fuck" i said as i grabbed my bag and slid my pen up my sleeve while the security guard motioned for me to come with him. while i followed i hid the pen back in my bra and walked quietly as he lectured me on smoking.
we got to the office and i made eye contact with ash sitting in a chair on his phone looking up at me. i sat down as the security guard asked for the principal and walked back to the room. ash stood up and quickly sat down next to me as i glared at him and he smirked, i hated that he was attractive but such a prick. "so what did you do? too many dress code violations?" he said while keeping that smirk plastered in his face, i rolled my eyes and said "is this your way of calling me a slut? and i got caught smoking behind the school dumbass" he slapped his hand to his chest jokingly and sarcastically said "i would never talk about you like that" i rolled my eyes again. "so do you wanna leave?" i heard him ask, i turned to him with a straight face and answered "yes".
we watched the office lady get up and walk to the back room and that's when we made our move. ash stood up and grabbed my hand and we bolted out of the office doors and then out of the school itself. as soon as we got out we laughed and he asked "do you want to come with me? i can drive us". i stood there for a few seconds, silently debating, but acted on impulse and said yes. we got in his car and he pulled out of the parking lot but not before turning the radio on and letting me connect to aux, i had no idea what he listened to so i just shuffled my playlist with the first song being 'feel good' by yot club. "do you still have your pen? or did they take it?" ash spoke up from the silence "i don't think it's a good idea for you to be driving under the influence" i replied "then let's go somewhere" he stated and drove us to a park.
we pulled up to the park and got out, we started walking to the picnic bench next to the playground and i pulled my pen out of my bra. the park was empty and quiet as we sat there and smoked, weirdly enough i didn't hate it or that i got to sit and look at him. as much as i hated him i didn't hate to look at him. "you got a staring problem or something?" he blurted out and broke my gaze from him. "sorry i spaced out for a sec, my bad" i quickly said to not make it more awkward than it was, which it was. "it's fine, i know i'm perfect and it's hard to not stare at me" he sarcastically said, wouldn't be ash without some snarky or sarcastic remark, i rolled my eyes as a response. we sat in silence for a little but i didn't mind, i've always loved the silence, i doubted that ash cared either. "you know, i don't actually hate you as much as i act like i do, i kind of just have douchey friends" he broke the silence with a very unexpected comment. "well your friends say a lot about how you are" i stood up and grabbed my pen from his outstretched hand "and from how they are i assume you're the same" he stood up and we walked back to his car in silence, he shouldn't drive and we both knew that but i didn't know what else to do. we got in and he looked over at me and said "i'm not a dick all the time, and i'm not a douche like my friends either". he sounded kind of hurt or offended which made me instantly feel bad, i wanted to apologize but i went to talk and cut me off. "what do you wanna do?" i sate there in silence then looked at him "i'm sorry, i didn't mean to be a bitch" i forced, it was never easy to get along with him but especially not apologize, but i meant it. "you didn't answer my question" he ignored my apology but i swear i saw him smile a little
"i don't care, wherever" and then he drove.
