little things

the turth

some of these chapters are gonna be in like vic's, pearls, mars or finians povs bc i sometimes get bored of doing the same pov:)
anyways enjoy

tw's for this chapter:
sh/mention
drugs, drinking
and smoking
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vic's pov:

hours after he left the party

I sat there thinking about whatever the fuck just happened earlier, xe's never acted like that out of nowhere. so i guess i pissed em' off a little or something.. i knew that they were drunk i shouldn't have done that but yet i did im such an idiot.. and no ones home right now, mars is out with finian even though she said she'd be home 20 minutes ago. god i hate when she does that just leaves me all alone when i told her about what happened, i only trust her with shit that happens because she's my closest friend and we live together since i got fucking kicked out of the house 2 years ago for being on drugs all on the goddamn time. "i need a smoke" i said aloud trying to cancel my thoughts a bit, i grab my pack, an a ligher heading towards my window opening it a bit and sticking a leg through heading out to go sit on the roof.
as soon as i got up there i opened the pack and took one out putting it in my mouth and lighting it carefully trying not to try and burn me or my hands that are covering it from the wind.
as soon as i got it lit i put my trusty lighter away and took a drag puffing out the smoke "god why do i do this everytime we go to a party" i mumbled into the cigarette. i took another drag and lifted the cigarette out of my mouth breathing out the smoke and taking another hit soon after. i then hear two people chatting below and look over at the sound- its mars and finian. they seem happy even after all the events that took place earlier not a care in the world i guess, i sat there smoking till i hear talking in my room
"vic?" i heard mars ask. "is he not home?" finn asked mars presumably.

mars pov:

we enter me and vic's room. no sign of him "vic?" i asked trying to see if he's atleast home.. "is he not home?" he asked. "maybe.. could be on the roof again?" i looked over at the window and finn nods heading over, same thing i was doing i poked a head out and saw vic on the opposite side of the roof from the last time he was up there smoking "vic? you ok?" i asked calmly. he looked over i can see tears forming in his eyes, i dont think he's texted anyone back or talked to anyone again since the party ended. he was so worried and caught up about sav half the time, i know he's inlove with xe but goddamn he's dragging himself down basically with all of this shit.
i gently climb out of the window and head over to him finn following. "wanna talk about it?" i asked again. "sure.." he frowned, "ok so what exactly happened when you guys were alone?".

vics pov again:

"ok so what exactly happened when you guys were alone?" mars asked. god i dont wanna remember right now but she asked so might as well say it. "we talked.. went upstairs to the bathroom talked some more...they kinda sobered up we played a game then ended up making out.. god this is embarrassing but she kinda like got hostile and pulled away.. before i could even ask what was wrong she slapped my face- kinda hard too like she meant it.." i breathed out shakingly, after saying all the details and such. "vic... they aren't healthy for you,, i mean yeah they're our friend but doesn't mean you should love someone who hurts you that fucking much y'know.." they said barely reassuringly. i just shake my head at
em' "no.. you dont get it mars, yeah we might be quote unqoute 'bad for eachother'.. but i can see that he feels the same just wont admit it because of what they've done their scared to." i responded. she and finn just stared at me a little concerned i could tell. "but im fine mars.. finn.. just leave me alone for a bit ya?" i said trying to get them to stop worrying. they nodded at me and went back inside probably to the bathroom or kitchen or some shit. i scooted back over towards the window and climbed in, walking over to my bed side table putting out my cigarette in the old ashtray. i then walk over to my dresser opening the top draw searching around for a razor of some sort.

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after he did so
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im currently sitting in the bathroom with the door locked water running, staring at what the actual fuck i just did. "god mars is gonna be pissed if they find out.." i said aloud, but in a low tone.

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ik this chapter isnt as long as the other one i just wanted to atleast keep some short since i took me like 2 days to finish one of em' but o well anyways enjoy ig and ik some shit i write can be triggering so just read safe.

anyways keep safe, eat drinking etc.
love y'all

- kota<3