little things

embarassement

going from what i said last story! will be using diff characters kinda
may do a bit of flashbacks depending on.

tw's:
addiction
and sh/sh mention
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mars pov:

its been a few days since the party and nothing has happened much. vic hasnt talked since then and because of that neither of us have been to school all week. i ended up doing drugs and shit with him because we got bored and i might've told him about my feelings for finian on accident.. and all he did then was just give a hella shocked expression towards me. i feel so fucking stupid
i havent told vic about it but god i feel so embarrassed in myself. why did i have to do that?! i dont wanna talk to anyone now..
they roll over in their bed staring at the wall infront of them. sighing and just blankly staring at it hoping something else will happen but nothing does. vic was sitting near the window thinking to himself it looks like while im doing so.

i feel so bad for him.. our friends treat eachother so shitty like to the point we always do stupid shit to not think about it, but here i am overthinking about stupid fucking things. "hey vic?" i finally say something and he shuffles a bit. "yeah mars?" he finally talked. "why are we like this..?" i mumbled a bit sounding like im going to start sobbing. "dont know mars... buts its okay i promise.. i think we should finally go do something other then lay around though..-" he finally spoke up.

i agree though i just wanted him to say it not me, i felt like he'd get mad and go into a more depressive state- "do you feel like thats a good idea?" he asks throwing me out of my thoughts. i nod at him and sit up finally facing him he gives me a weak smile and looks away.

"so where should we go..? please dont say her house..-" i muttered the last part hoping he doesnt say her.

"i wanna apologize to sav- but i'd rather just go hangout with other people i know and get shitfaced." he responded rather quickly.

"sounds good to me- but where and who exactly?" i asked, also immediately after.

"no clue. lets just go search around for some shit party, but before we do so..-" there was a long pause, some shuffling and movement and then he continued "-lets get high as shit." he said happily.

"of course vic-" i got up from the bed and went over to him.

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we found a shitty college party, nearby.
it was so boring all anyone was doing was grinding against eachother and making out.
some poeple were smoking and drinking but other then that... it was gross- we did see someone we know here..

it was sav we saw her making out with this random guy i dont know who he is.. he was gross looking, he had bright bleach blonde curls.. and sun glasses on inside.. gross

vic did notice him right away and stayed away from them completely wouldnt blame them to be honest but god damn sav why that crusty freak-?

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heyyyy again sorry for the late posts and stuff i've been rlly busy with school lately and irl stuff.

but heres the new chapter or so sorry it's kind of a late one!!

love you guys/p be safe drink your daily water ans eat, have fun etc!

- kota