His Secret

Heart=Broken

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Since I started school a few days ago I will mostly update on the weekends :<
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I can't believe what Ney just said. „What?", I ask him confused. „Was this, us ,all a lie?", I ask him and I hear my own voice becoming more quiet. „No, no.", Ney says and tries to take my hand. „Don't you dare to touch me. Explain it", I say. „Okay listen yeah?It started when you guys had this practice with us. We did this bet alright?So the date I took you out to had the intention of making you fall for me. That's the truth. And the kiss wasn't planned I did what I wanted but the full intention behind the date and maybe the time we spent afterwards was to make you fall for me. I am being honest."

I stare at him and shake my head."I can't believe this". „This is not huge Vicky it is gone. It is the past,why bother with it?", I laugh ironically. „Are you serious?You just told me that you wasn't interested in me. I thought", I look at the ground for a moment:"After Sebastian cheated on me I was broken,devastated. I never went out with a guy, never. And than you were there and I thought for a moment maybe someone wants me again. Maybe someone is willing to care for me again, to love me again."

„You just told me that it was all a lie and I don't know", I say and shake my head stepping a step backwards."No no. I understand okay I understand. It was dumb. But don't walk away. Stay here and be mad but don't walk away, please", He pleads and I take a look at him. I see that he means his words: I see his fear of being alone again, I see the regret of what he did, but what I recognize the most is the affection he looks at me with.

„Is there anything else?", I ask because if we are spilling the truth I want everything. He turns his face away as if he is debating with himself. God please no. „The time", he says and clears his throat:"After Brazil I told you there was no one, but there were a few times where... where I was drunk. Totally almost blacking out drunk and I, I have slept with Sophia", he says and I bite my lip.

I look up to the sky and pray to god to help me not to pick his eyes out."You told me several times there was nothing", I say and look at him again. „Because it was unnecessary to tell you", he says. „So you thought lying is better?Well now you fucked up Neymar", I say and walk past him. „No hey stop", he says and I hear his foot steps behind me. „I won't let you go", he says and holds me back by my arm.

I turn my body to him and blink the tears away:"You know that this was my biggest fear: You lying to me. I told you how many issues I had in my past relationships with it", I say and pull my arm free. „You did what I always told you  when we were lying in bed I was scared off. I cried in your arms Ney", I say and sob slightly.

„I can't be with you right now", I say and turn around again walking somewhere where I am not sure is. I quickly notice the tears falling from my eyes and I kneel down and cry into my hands. The bet isn't even what bothers me that much but the fact that he lied to me about sleeping with someone else is. I am not mad at him since we weren't dating or anything but it still hurts and I told him openly that this is something I still deal with. It just feels as if he betrayed me.

After I calm down I stand up again and take my phone out. I start to call Katy and wipe my tears away:"Hey bestie what's up", I hear her joyful voice ask. „Hey", I whisper and look around the street and the people."You sound sad. What happened?", she asks concerned. „I just, can I stay with you tonight?", I ask her. „Of course.I will send you the address of our hotel. Do we need a girls night?", she asks and I immediately nod."Please please", I say and hear my own voice breaking. I need my best friends right now.

We end the call and I call an uber and drive to the hotel.In the lobby I am met with two worried gorgeous girls and Bella and Katy immediately walk towards me and open their arms. They just know what to do. „Hey what's up you look so sad", Bella says while rubbing the back of my head. I ask them if we could talk in the hotel room and we enter the elevator. „You need to borrow me stuff.Please", I say and smile a little bit. „You will get our whole fucking suitcase", Katy says and hugs me smiling.