Mysterious case of Felix | he keeps getting attracted

Both of us?

[Your POV]

Sparkly eyes and freckles.

The first thought in my mind when I wake up and go to bed were you. This is what I think about all day, as you are my sweetest daydream and my torturous nightmares.

"Did you have a nightmare again?" Asks Felix with concern painted all over his beautiful face.

I can barely breathe but for him, I manage to exhale and nod once. I try my best to smile a little, but Felix drops his head and places one hand on my back.

I did all I could to not fall apart at the touch.

"Is it a different one?" Felix never asks what the dream is about. He must think it was too traumatic to talk about.

I exhale again and let him hug me softly, "it is kind of the same you could say. Makes me feel... it gives me a headache, well not in my head but.."

Felix hugs tighter and cautiously asks, "A heartache?"

That's it.

I could never tell him that what I really dream about is him. Losing him. Hurting him. My own subconscious is painfully reminding me that one more day I spend without telling him how much I ache for him, is one more day I risk losing him forever.

I know he would always hold me like this, too hurt to see me cry. But I can see his patience fading, and soon he will give up on asking me what my nightmare is all about. He will give in and pull away. Or worse, think I don't trust him enough. Think of his as a close friend anymore.

When all I want is to hold him closer. Closer than anyone held him.

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[Felix's POV]

I hear her soft screams and sobs every night without being able to do anything but hug her. I don't think she has any idea that I know.

In between her cries, she whispers, "Felix no, please, no" and cries harder than ever. I have never knowingly hurt her so I don't know why she would have such painful nightmares about me. Unless.

Unless she is in love with me.

It makes sense actually, considering how close we are. But why me? If anything, I thought it would be Hyunjin. It would be Chan too, but she seems to be scared of him.

She is silently crying in her sleep again. I do not dare to go near her, she might say something that breaks m heart again.

Yeah, I might be in love with her too.

"Might be?" Jisung had laughed the first time I confessed to her. "Dude, what gave it away? Your puppy eyes when she walks away from you? Or how she chose you as her bias and your face was a tomato?"

I hate him, that loser. Of course I love her, what is not to love? Her laughter, her kindness, those lips... Felix, focus dammnit.

Her cries, they have stopped. I rush over to her, but she has not woken up yet. Instead, she is peacefully sleeping. I am so so happy.

But then I hear her again, "I can't lose you too."

With that, she starts breathing impossibly fast and I have to shake her to wake her up.

She stays in my arms for it feels like forever, but does not reveal anything to me. I don't either. Her feelings for me are so intense, it honestly scares me. What if I finally tell her that I love her back and I am not enough?

Jisung's snarky comments come back in my head again and I have to physically hold back my annoyance or the urge to pull her closer.

"You can let go now", she says with a real smile this time. And I smile back, but I feel a bit hurt. She wants me to go. Yet I can't help thinking when I see her smile that she looks perfect.