I'm rethinking life again, just like what I do every single time. Day or night it always come into my mind, life.
There are lot of questions within me that I think no one can properly answer because nobody knows it or nobody can prove if it's the truth or not.
Before, I despise the existence of "God" started to rethink every single thing and measuring his "realness" I believed I was atheist because I was in pain and sadness and even guilt. But now, I strongly believe that I'm no longer atheist because of that, I do not believe in his existence because I think he is just a somebody who doesn't even exist but were made to think is real to create boundaries and limitations among people.
Just like how "pamahiin" exists. It's just a mere belief that no one can attest that it's true.
I think there's no God, or ghosts or heaven or hell. But why there is none? What about after death? Will it just be an empty space? A cold and dark soil that we can no longer feel once life was gone? Idk. Idk. Idk.
It is absurd but I think, I am God.
I am perfect.
Fuck, fuck this kind of thinking. This is fucked. I am fucked.
Believe me or not, I highly think I am perfect. Fuckkkkkk
