Amanda's POV:
I dug through all of my bags, trying to find my notebooks. Carmen had asked to see my songs. I was a bit hesitant, honestly. I still write now and then, but none of it is that good. Labels would never want me.
I eventually found the little black notebook with the name "Ava Kay" on it. Ava Kay was my stage name when I wrote all the time. I released an EP with it. Nobody knows about it; except the bullies. I was constantly ridiculed at school because of it flopping. I grabbed the notebook and walked to the living room. I sighed and handed it off to Carmen.
"Here are all of my songs," I said, scared.
"Babe, why are you scared?" she asked.
"There's a reason I was bullied for them," I replied.
She opened the book to a page near the end. It was a recent song.
"Anyone But You?" Carmen asked. "It's dated April 9th,"
"Yeah," I replied. "It's relatively recent,"
"Babe, that was a week ago," she said.
"Yeah," I replied with a little laugh.
"Just wanna be loved, Just wanna be loved, Just wanna be loved, By anyone but you, Anyone but you," Carmen said while I sang the lyrics.
"BABY," she yelled excitedly. "YOUR VOICE IS AMAZING,"
"You're just saying that because you're my girlfriend," I replied.
"No," she said. "I mean it. Sing the rest of the song,"
"Ok," I said. "If you want me to,"
I took the notebook from her and started singing the lyrics. I smiled the entire time. I guess I did miss singing.
"You need to record that," Carmen said.
"Why?" I said. "I doubt anything would happen with it,"
"You seem like you enjoyed singing," she said. "And I think you have a lot of potential,"
"Who would produce it, though?" I asked.
"I have a connection," she said.
All these thoughts circled in my head. Who was her connection? How could I afford studio time? What if it all fails?
"His birthday is next weekend. Do you wanna come with me to his party?" she asked.
"I guess," I replied. "What if he doesn't like me?"
"It wouldn't hurt to show him your voice," Carmen replied. "I'll tell him you're coming,"
"Um, ok," I said. "Who's gonna be there?"
"Me, Torrence, and a lot of music industry people," she said.
"What should I wear?" I asked, panicked.
Everything was overwhelming. I never thought I'd get this close to following my dreams. I was excited but nervous. What if I make a fool of myself when I meet the producer? What if he hates me?
"We can go shopping tomorrow!" Carmen said. "Torrence and I have to get our outfits still, so we could all go and get outfits,"
"Ok, I guess that's fine," I said.
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Sunday, April 17th (AKA the next day)
Amanda's POV (Still):
We picked up Torrence at her house and then headed to Santa Monica. We lived in Venice, so Santa Monica wasn't too far. We started blasting "Norman Fucking Rockwell" on the way to the mall. I always loved screaming "goddamn, man child," but especially now with Noah.
The whole car ride was so much fun. Torrence is such an entertaining person to be around. I learned that she masters songs and has a lot of connections! Maybe making music isn't such a stretch. I don't have much confidence in myself, though.
"We're here bitches," Carmen said.
"Fuck yeah," Torrence said.
"Yea, let's go!" I said excitedly.
I haven't been shopping in forever. Noah never let me go anywhere. Plus, money has always been tight. Honestly, I'm a bit scared I won't be able to afford anything today. I need to get something, though. It's the only way I might be able to achieve my dreams.
We walked into the first store and looked around. Everything was so expensive. I couldn't afford $200 on a dress for one night. That's a lot of money for something that might not even get me anywhere.
"Babe," Carmen said, holding a red outfit. "You need to try this one,"
It was a red tube top with little embroidered hearts. It also had a matching skirt.
"Yeah," Torrence said. "It'll look cute,"
I took it from Carmen and walked into the dressing room. I quickly got into it and looked at it. It's cute but not what I'd like for a first impression. I walked out of the changing room to see what Carmen and Torrence thought.
"I love that," Torrence said.
"Yeah, that's cute," Carmen said.
"I don't know," I said. "It just doesn't feel right,"
"Wrong size?" Torrence asked.
"No," I said. "Not my style,"
"What kind of outfit are you thinking?" Carmen asked.
"Maybe a blazer with a tube top or bra underneath," I said.
"We can work with that," Torrence said.
"What kind of shoes?" Carmen asked.
"Platform boots?" I questioned.
"Sure!" Torrence said.
I changed back into my everyday outfit, and we went to a new store. We tried on every colour of blazer you could think of, eventually landing on a red one. I tried it on and liked it. I imagined a black bralette underneath.
"Now, what accessories should we get?" Carmen asked.
As Carmen and Torrence bickered back and forth about what would look good, thoughts fluttered in my head. I had a vision in my mind now. I knew what I wanted, but I doubted my girlfriend would like it. What if she brakes up with me? All of this would be over, and I'd be back to dreaming. Maybe I shouldn't mention it, or perhaps I should? I mean, I'm trying to pursue a persona.
"What if I bleach my hair?" I said. "Or get a wig until I get my hair platinum,"
"What?" Carmen said.
"I mean, we could do that," Torrence said.
"Probably the wig would be best," Carmen said.
"Is that ok with you?" I asked. "I felt cute in the blonde as Ava. I want that to be my life-"
"If that's what you want, then we can dye your hair," Carmen said with a smile.
"Wait, seriously?" I asked, excited.
"Of course! I want to see you happy," she replied.
"Bleaching party?" Torrence asked.
"Fuck yeah," Carmen said.
"I can't wait!" I said.
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A/N: Hey yall, how are you? HAPPY DIAMONDS & DANCEFLOORS DAY! I literally haven't stopped listening to the album, lol. Also, I'm very excited to write the next chapter. I'm gonna get into some Ava lore. Anyways, I love yall so much, remember to drink water, and eat something.
Also, what are yalls favourite songs from D&D? Mine are Dancing's Done, Last Night On Earth, Sleepwalker, Hold Up (Wait A Minute), and Cold As ice.
Comments are always greatly appreciated<3
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Sting Of A Torn Stranger
FanficAmanda, an office worker by day and a superhero by night, just found out her boyfriend was cheating on her. But when she sees the woman he's cheating on her with, she falls in love with her.
