As you know I broke up with someone. He is a total ass I hate him. But that's in the past now I can be single and be myself. But that didn't happen one of my friends sent me a message on Facebook on how ugly I was I was a bitch. Now I didn't do anything but listen to the words (fat), (ugly), (stupid), (bitch). I started telling myself that all those things were true and that did not help I got so down I cried myself to sleep almost every night. At this point my depression wasn't that bad.
On the other hand my mother ohhhh boy she is a... A.... Bitch I CAN NOT.. CAN NOT stand her but I have to live with her. She does not understand me at all she thinks she gets me but no she drives me nuts blames the divorce on my father. When it is her fault. Everything is her fault. She black mails us tells us lies about my father, makes us want to hate him, and like her. When I try and talk to her and tell her the truth she yells at me and tells me it's not true.
And when she is around other people she acts all sweet and nice to use like its not even her anymore. She doesn't even care about me or anyone but her stupid self. I have been wishing for a new mother for so long now when will it come true? The fights we get in are worse now I'm constantly yelling at her to listen, but... She doesn't. What kind of mother does that? Because I don't know... Oh wait ya I do know it called my mother. I wonder if she ever wanted to kill me or hit me.
