English- To all the boys I loved before- HSMTMTS Version

The contract

I look at Ricky a little bit frightened and nod. What is he about to say? "I am feeling honored because of your letter. Most of all because you wrote that my eyes remembers you of chocolate." I groan embarrassed. "I wrote that?" "Yes. But the thing is..." "You're together with Lily. I respect that and I wrote that in first class of secondaryschool", I finish Rickys sentence and also clear everything up. "No, we split up but..." Ricky and Lily split up? It must have been very recently and right on time my letter arrives. Meanwhile Ricky is still talking, I see EJ leaving the school. In his hand he has my letter and it looks like he's searching for me. Now he found me. "Oh no", I proclaime and I pray on the inside that Ricky will forgive me for the thing I do now. I stand up, wrap my arms around Rickys neck and kiss him. Ricky is in complete shock which I can totally understand. I blink carefully, Ricky has his eyes closed and so he doesn't see that I watch EJ and he looks as us speechless until he turns around. Relieved, I want to distance myself from Ricky but suddenly he puts his arm around me and pulls me closer. Surprised, I close my eyes and I almost want to sink into this kiss but I realize why I kissed Ricky in the first place. Because of that I end the kiss quickly. "Sorry", I apologize and remove Rickys hands from my waist. "Why are you sorry?", he doesn't understand. "Didn't you want it?" I shake my head. "I only had to make it look like I liked you so somebody else wouldn't think that I like them." Ricky looks around but with a simple "Hey" I have his attention. "Who is this other person?", Ricky wants to know. In an annoying way I sit down again on the bench. "Do I have to tell you?" "You kissed me and now I wand to know why", he explains and sits down right next to me.

After a short summary about how Kourtney sent my letters, Ricky looks at me unbelievable. "I thought, I'm allowed to feel special", he smirks. "Sorry. You're only one of many", I grin back. "That's how it works, Roberts. You're acting naive but you play with boys like dolls", he says in a playful way which makes me giggle and shake my head at the same time. "You know, we could help each other. We're pretending like we're together. Cause then EJ leaves you alone and Lily gets jealous. Maybe even EJ gets jealous and at the end we both get what we want", Ricky suggests. First I want to disagree with him but it's not a bad idea. "All right but there are rules", I explain and get out my notepad. "Kissing is allowed but only if it's necessary", I decide and write it down. "But you kissed me", Ricky wonders which I answer with a threatening look. "I could write you notes. Everyday. Lily was always on me to write her them and I never did, so if I start sending them you, she'll be pissed", he has an idea. "Fine but you pick me up to school and bring me home everyday. I hate these sticky busses and it always take so long for me to get to school...and you already have a car", I suggest. "Ok but only if you go with me to Homecoming", Ricky suggest. "Homecoming?", I'm wondering. "Do you really think we're still gonna be doing this by then?", I ask carefully. "If we are still doing this by the time it comes around, you have to go with me, okay? If you say no, you can take the bus to school", he grins and that's how I agree with him. After all the rules are written down on my notepad, we sign them too. So everything's clear: Me and Ricky Bowen are a couple. Even if it's just pretending.

At the moment, me and Ricky are holding hands while walking down the hallway I realize that the people are whispering. It's the first for me that other people are talking about me. " You will get used to it, babe", Ricky smiles, as we stand in front of his locker and he kisses me on the cheek before getting his stuff. I look at him speechless- we made it clear that kisses are an exception. "Do you want that the people to already know that we fake all of this?", he hisses. Quickly I change to a neutral look. Gina, EJ and Kourtney are approaching. "I knew it would work", Kourtney whispers in my ear, after she congratulations me for Ricky and hugs me. I nod silent and I also get a hug from Gina. "You have to tell me everything, okay? Every detail", she says and then she looks to Ricky. "Do you know that she was in love with you in secondaryschool?", she asks him. "No, I didn't know that", he plays along and with a smile, he puts an arm around me. "How sweet of you", he smiles in such a sweet way at me that I don't have an other choice than smiling back.

Before I am going into the classroom, I pull Kourtney and Carlos back to me. "Me and Ricky are just pretending so that he can make Lily jealous and EJ leaves me alone. Maybe he also gets jealous", I explain them the plan. I can't tell Gina obviously. Kourtney looks at me in surprise. "With contract and everything? We all know that you're an organizationfreak", Carlos teases me which makes me blush. "Are you serious? A contract?", he starts laughing so I hit him playfully on his arm. "Try to do it better", I answer confidently, walk into class and sit down next to Gina. Lily  turns around on her seat to look at me. "You shouldn't take this seriously with Ricky. It's obvious, he's only with you to get me back." Her words are like a kick in my stomach cause she's right. Ricky would never really like me- as less as EJ. "But she's the only one who believes that. I saw how Ricky looked at you. You're two are really cute together", Gina tries to comfort me and nudges me slightly with her elbow. I can only smile fake as an answer- if she only knew the truth.

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After school I walk with Ricky to his car so EJ can't get near me. Gina gives us a thumb up. Honestly it's really cute how she supports us. With a smirk I get in the passenger seat and we're driving to my house. It's a silent ride and that's why Ricky is turning on the radio. A song of Taylor Swift is playing and I can't fight against it- I have to sing. "Still Taylor Swift?", Ricky smirks after a while. He is watching me while I am singing which makes my stomach tingle. "Still Taylor Swift", I nod. "When we were younger you also liked to sing. Do you want to do something with singing after school?", Ricky wants to know. In the earlier days in secondaryschool when we're still close I always talked about being a singer someday. "I'm writing songs. Are you still as musically as in the earlier days?", I ask. Ricky nods with interest. "Yes, I am still like that. But Lily thought that I should concentrate on acting. She dreamed about us two living in Hollywood. I would be a Broadway Star and she is a well-known Fashionista or something like that", Ricky tells me. "You shouldn't stop with your passion because of her. I still know how you always loved to play us something on your guitar when you were little", I remember. We- I mean Gina, EJ, Ricky, Lily and myself until me and Lily had a big fight and it was weird to do something together. Ricky smiles because of my words. "Will you sing a song me?", he begs. I nod and I knock a rhythmn on the storage of the car to sing with.

"Co-co-comparison is killing me slowly

I think, I think too much

'Bout kids who don't know me

I'm so sick of myself

I'd rather be, rather be

Anyone, anyone else

My jealousy, jealousy (yeah)

All your friends are so cool, you go out every night

In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're living the life

Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too

I wanna be you so bad...and so on. I bet you think it's horrible", I am a bit embarrassed. I wrote that song after I was again jealous of Lily. "No, that was amazing", Ricky is honest. "Okay...now you sing something", I beg him as we arrive in front of my house. "We have arrived now", Ricky tries to distract me. "I won't get out of this car until you sang something for me, Richard Bowen", I reply and look at him in a strict way. "Okay, if you stop call me Richard", he answers. We laugh together before Ricky thinks about what he can sing for me.

"I know you're nervous
But I won't let you fall (I won't let you fall)
We weren't perfect
But you were worth it all
If it were my call, I'd do it all

I couldn't blame you for putting yourself first
But I'm not afraid to say something first, even if it hurts
I'd need you to know", he sings beautiful lyrics from which I almost start to tear up. "I wrote this yesterday", Ricky explains to me. "It's about Lily, right?", I ask carefully and Ricky nods. I can see the pain in his eyes which Lily caused in his heart. Hopefully he will be soon happy with her again- he still seems to love her.

As I enter my house, my parents immediately want to know who drove me home but I don't want to talk. I hide in my room. The letters are out and I have a fake-boyfriend, who isn't over his ex. Great.

The next day I obviously see the looks from my mums when Ricky picks me up for school. In school I greet Gina with a hug. While we're hugging I look at her boyfriend who looks at me and his lips shape the words:" We have to talk."

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Does EJ know about the fake-relationship?

My favourite chapter- Nini and Ricky are goals <3