Loved To Death

Loved To Death Chapter 6

I was awoken by Liza the next morning. “Good morning Sam! I made you coffee!” She said putting the cup in my hand. I opened my eyes to a beaming face. “You morning person!” I accused her playfully.

She smiled and replied “Guess who called me this morning?”

“I hope it was Ian Somerhalder.” I replied bluntly. She shook her head and nudged me. “Samantha. You’re such a bitter person! It was Chad.” A smile tugged at my mouth corners when the previous night’s memories started flooding into my head. “Chad? What’d he want?” I asked.

“He wants to go out tonight! On a date! A DATE!” She shrieked. I covered my ears trying to block out her high pitched voice.

She laughed and hugged my lifeless body. I slowly sat up to drink my coffee so that my day could begin.

I had no idea what this day was about to hand to me but after the wonderful night I had, I was ready to face it. Taylor had made me feel something I have never felt in my entire life and I wasn’t going to let anything ruin it. I pulled myself out of bed, jumped through the shower and pulled on some skinny jeans and a cute top. I straightened my hair, grabbed my phone and started texting Taylor.

I wanted to see him. He texted me back telling me he was leaving in five minutes, so I went downstairs to find Liza laughing with my father. My father. The thoughts that flashed through my mind nauseated me, but I shrugged them off. I had to remind myself that I wasn’t letting anything ruin my moment. “Good morning Samantha!” My mom and dad said simultaneously. “Good morning, Mum.” I said and hugged her. “Morning dad.” I said nodding at him. He gave me a small smile, but I could see the disappointment hiding behind his eyes.

I didn’t like the fact that our relationship was slowly busy deteriorating but I was finding it very difficult to just forget some things.

“Bye John! Bye Carly!” Liza said. She always called them by their first names, and strangely they didn’t mind it at all. I had gotten used to it by now. “Goodbye Elizabeth” my dad said smiling at her. “See you soon, Liza!” My mom said. When we got outside Liza’s mom’s car was parked there. “So, I’ll phone you and give you every detail?” Liza shrieked. I laughed at her. “I know you will! Talk to you later!” And she got into the car. They were going to the mall to get her an outfit for tonight.

When we walked into Taylor’s home it was dark and quiet, and nothing like the day I was here for the first time.  Taylor’s mom was sitting in the kitchen with a mug in her hand. After she greeted me warmly Taylor led me to his father. “Oh, hello Sam. How are you?” He said. His face showing little emotion but the small smile on the corners of his lips. I smile at him and told him that I was doing good.

When we got to his room he sat down on the bed inviting me to be seated next to him. “Did you enjoy last night? I hope you...” He nervously said when I cut him off by planting a soft kiss on his lips. “I had such a wonderful time! Thank you.” He let out a sigh of relief. I had almost thought we were the only two people on the entire planet when looked up into my eyes and said “We need to talk about it, Sam. You can’t keep avoiding the subject.” My stomach turned cold when he said that. “She’s a part of my life.”

“I know, Taylor. I just... I have this…” “Guilt.”He cut me off.

“Yes. Guilt. “I whispered as if talking to myself.

“Listen, Liv wants to talk to you. I told her you wouldn’t want to talk to her, but she insisted I tell you. She said if you then decide not to she would understand.” He spoke so fast I could hardly hear what he said, but I made out enough. My heart felt like it had turned into stone. “What? Why? What could she possibly want to say to me?” I asked confused. His face showed that he was clueless. I couldn’t say no, and I was curious to hear what she had to say, at the same time I didn’t know if it was such a good thing. My lips mouthed. “Let’s go, then.” And his eyes widened.

As I was sitting opposite the girl of Taylor’s dreams I couldn’t help but feel so warm. I should feel guilt, melancholy. But instead felt happy. “Listen, Sam. I know it’s hard for you to understand, but all I want is to know that when I am no longer here, there will be a lovely woman to take care of him. Because, gosh knows he can’t take care of himself.” She said laughing weakly. “Sure, if I could have done it myself, it would have been even more wonderful. But because of obvious reasons, it can’t be. And I have made peace with that. I’m afraid he hasn’t, though. And this is why I’m happy he met you. Because you’re a strong girl. I know that you could love him someday. Maybe even better than I ever have. When my time is done here, I know that he will have you to keep him going.” A tear made its trail down my cheek. She lifted her hand and wiped it off before it fell from my chin. “Do you understand now, dear girl?” She whispered and put her arms around me.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I feel horrible for doing this, Olivia.” I managed to say to her in between sobs.

She was so strong. I had so much respect for her. She was the one dying; she was the one who was supposed to be crying. Even as I thought that, I still didn’t have the strength to stop crying.

I wanted to completely break everything off with Taylor. He had to spend time with Olivia. I wiped my tears and thanked her for making it all clear to me. All I wanted now was to get out of there.

I got up after saying goodbye to her. I asked Taylor to take me home and he agreed.

“Are you okay?” Taylor asked when we arrived at my home. “Taylor. We need to end this… Whatever it is, it needs to be put to rest. I cannot do it anymore. It has gone too far, and even though I really like you, I just want out. Do you understand?” I saw a flash of disappointment in his face, and then a tear rolled down from his eye. “I understand, Sam. I’m so sorry I dragged you into this. I really do like you. You’re such a lovely girl. Promise me that we’ll keep in touch… Promise me.”

I felt the words “I promise” coming into my mouth, but did not manage to say them. Instead, when I opened my mouth the words “I… I can’t. … I …. I don’t know. I have to go.” escape. So I got out of his car and started walking towards the door. I silently wished that he had grabbed my arm and pulled me back into his arms.

I went inside and saw my parents sitting in the living room. Without even greeting them I went upstairs and shut my bedroom door. I started undressing and got into my bed. All I wanted to do was to sleep.

A few hours had passed when I heard the door open. I was relieved to see Liza standing there with Chinese food and DVD’s in her hands. She smiled politely and without saying anything managed to make me feel better instantly.

She sat down on the bed and ran her hands through my hair. “Feel like watching a horror?” I nodded my head and sat up to give her a hug. “Thank you.” I whispered.

We watched the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre. We had seen it about five times but it still cheered us up when we felt a bit blue. When the movie finished she got up to put it off and then sat down next to me again. “Okay, so tell me what’s wrong? Don’t even think of lying to me, Samantha Carter. I see right through you and you know it!” I forced a laugh and told her the whole story.  I told her everything Olivia had said, how it made me feel and what I planned on doing. And Liza told me exactly what I thought she would. “Ignoring him won’t make anything better. And, she wants you to look after him. By ignoring him you won’t be honoring her wish either.”

Her words made me think, but not change my mind. I was going to avoid him at work as long as summer lasted and after that I was not working at the theme park again. I didn’t want to see him nor talk to him.  And I know it was going to be very difficult. What we shared was special, but it only hurt us and the people around us. 

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