Niall Stylinson

chapter 15

Nialls pov

I am scared to lose people cus I will never be good enough. Greg just proved his point! "I'll get it and I see you then when I have the food!" Louis says. He grabs his stuff and leaves. I am going to my room and when I walk past Harry's room I see a lighter and grab it.

Would it hurt? Would it hurt just as bad as everything else does? I start to play with the lighter. I take off my pants and hold the lighter on against my leg. It burns and it hurts but it doesn't hurt as much as that Greg left. I do it on a other spot and I hear a knock on my door.

I put the lighter under my pillow. "Wait a minute! I am changing" I yell and I put on a other pair of pants on. I open the door and see Harry. He comes in and we sit down.

"Wanna hear something stupid?" He asks. "Sure," Harry looks a bit drunk but I don't wanna ask about it. "I drank a whole bottle of vodka and Louis is gonna be so mad at me," okay he is drunk but i don't really care.

"Why?" I ask him. Will he be honest with me or not? "Cus I will never be good enough for any person. Louis hates it when I drink and i get that but he doesn't understand," oh dear lord he is very drunk.

"I don't think he loves me anymore. I also lost my lighter. Not that I need it but I did lost it so if you seen it give me it cus it is veryyyyy dangerous and i wanna smoke," I giggle. Drunk harry is funny.

We hear the frontdoor open and I turn to harry. "Louis is gonna kill me!" He says. We walk downstairs and I walk behind him. I am happy I walk behind him cus he falls down the stairs. He is that drunk!

"Niall do you know if he drank something?" Louis asks me trying not to laugh. "Shhhh he can't know I drank that bottle of vodka!" He says. Louis sighs and Harry is still on the ground.

"My leg hurts and my back hurts too," Harry says. Louis grabs harry and they walk to the couch. "I am very tired," harry lays down on the couch and falls alseep.

"What did he tell you?" Louis asks while we eat. "He lost his lighter, he thinks you hate him and dont love him anymore and that you are gonna be mad at him," Louis smiles. Harrys had is on Louis lap. "Ni?" I look at Louis and nod.

"Yeah?" I ask. "Where is Harrys lighter? If you know of course," he asks. "I don't know. Why?" He lifts up Harrys shirt and I see a lot of burning wounds. "Oh," I say sadly.

"Did he do that himself?" I ask. "Some of them yeah. Before he met me he had another boyfriend, lets just say he wasn't the best boyfriend," I look down cus no one knew that.

"Before he came out?" I ask. "Yes before he came out," Louis says worried. "Did he abuse Harry?" I ask and Louis nods again. "You have to promise me something niall," Louis says. "What?" I ask.

"If you ever feel down or get bullied in school next week, come to me! I will not treat those people with kindness and if you feel down talk to me about it or tell me you feel down but don't wanna talk about cus then we can find someone that you can trust," I nod. "Okay." He smiles and after a while Harry wakes up.

"My back still hurts," Harry says. We look at him. "You did fall pretty bad," Louis says. "Maybe we should go to a doctor tomorrow," Louis continues. "It is probably nothing bad," Harry walks to the bathroom and we hear him throw up.

"That was the alcohol don't worry," Louis says. He comes back and looks at us. "I am gonna take a shower and eat after that," we laugh and Harry can barely walk cus his legs hurt. We hear him falling down the stairs again. "I AM OKAY!" he yells. Now louis and i can burst out laughing cus he is more sober.