(Imagine your doctor regenerated to 11 and you stayed with him but then you meet 10 again) (based on the episode the day of the doctor but I changed it of course and he looks like usual not with this terrible hair they gave him in that episode)
Pov Y/N
I met the doctor when he was the 10th doctor. I fell in love with him faster than I would have liked. I didn't thought he'd liked me back so I didn't even told him. Lucky for me he had the courage to tell me he loves me and we came together. The day he regenerated I thought I'd die inside I couldn't imagine to live without him. I wasn't even there when he regenerated he dropped me off 1 day before it not telling me why. But I don't know how long it has been for him. He then came back as 11 and told me after he regenerated he immediately went to me. I cried like a week and the doctor tried to take care of me but I kinda abandoned him. But then I thought I can't do that to him that's still my doctor...well kinda. So I went to the console room where he stood. He was in thought. I went over to him and then he noticed me. He turned around to face me and I just hugged him. After a second he hugged back and I said "I'm sorry" calm he said "you don't have to be". The voice I love so much was gone.
I travel with 11 since 2 years now and I do love that man. But not as much as I love 10. I feel kinda guilty for still missing my doctor but I can't help it I still love him more. I mean I'm not really together with the doctor anymore but when we traveled with Amy and Rory she told me she knew he still loves me.
Today the Tardis got picked up from a helicopter and we were dragged to some museum or something I didn't quite catch what it was something called UNIT. We stand in front of a painting with a blanket over it. A woman pulles the blanket away and we look at a painting of Gallifrey. I look at the doctor knowing what must be going on in his head right now. The look on his face says everything. I feel my heart breaking just like it did when I saw my doctor being sad. I take his hand to comfort him a little bit but he doesn't take his eyes of the painting. "It looks 3D" I say "Gallifrey art." the doctor answers. We walk closer to it and it's like I can look around the corner of it. I would be so fascinated if I wouldn't know the context. Then we go into another room with glass all over the floor. The doctor and this woman talk about it when I drift off into my thoughts. Suddenly a portal appears. The looks at it and then looks at me with a smile "Wanna come with me?" he aks "Why do you even ask?" I answer smiling. He takes my hand and we jump through it.
We fall onto the ground me landing on top of him. He looks right into my eyes when I hear the beautiful voice I missed so much the last 2 years "Y/N?" I looked away from 11 and to 10. I get up in the blink of an eye and run into his arms almost shouting "You can't imagine how much I missed you!" my voice is shaking and tears run down my cheeks. "Y/N I missed you so much it's been weeks since I dropped you off!" he then pulled back from the hug only to pull me into a kiss. I immediately kissed back missing this for the past 2 years. He then suddenly stops asking me "Wait how did you get here? And who's that?" he asks I laugh slightly and say "That's you!" he looks at 11 and then back to me with a little sad smile "You stayed with me?" still crying a little I answer "Of course I did. I love you." his hands are still on my cheeks so he wipes away my tears.
He asks "And are you and him-" I interrupt him "No. I never really managed it to get over you." I look at him tears coming up in my eyes again. "How long has it been for you since you last saw me?" "2 years" he looks at me shocked and then pulls me into an embrace. "I'm so sorry" "You just dropped me off and didn't even let me really say goodbye to you!" "I know I'm so sorry I just didn't wanted you to see me die" tears stream down my face again. My head is resting on his chest "I missed that heart beat so very much" he smiles "Yeah I know you love the beat of my hearts. And they're only beating for you love." I missed it so much that he called me love.
When we pull apart I look at 11. He only stands there looking at us with an indefinable look on his face. The two of them walk closer to each other. They then pull out their sonic screwdrivers making the exact same movements. Of course 11 brags with his one because his is better but I still prefer the one of my doctor. 10 then takes my hand making 11 look at our hands. "Hey that's my thing!" he says "It was mine before it was yours." 10 responds "Yeah...right" 11 adds looking to the floor for a moment. They look at each other for a while and then 10 says "I can see it in your eyes. You still love her." after a short while 11 answers "Of course I love her I'm you that's one of the things that doesn't change. But she loves you still. Sometimes I think only for a little moment when she looks at me like she once looked at you that she loves me back. But then I remember when she looks at me like that that she's only thinking of you."
Suddenly I feel guilty again and 10 looks guilty too. "Doctor I do love you but" I look my doctor in the eyes "I never loved anyone like I loved you." "Y/N you know I love you more than I love anything else in the universe but" tears come up in his eyes "this will be the last time we see each other." I feel tears running down my cheeks again. "What?" I say in a shaky voice again "I dropped you off a few weeks ago and that was the last time we saw each other. "I cry harder "No!" is everything I can say and he pulls me into a hug again. "But this time we at least get to say goodbye." he says "No doctor I can't go through this again!" he lets go of me "How much I hate to say that and I really do but you have to." still crying I ask "Can I at least spend the day with you?" "Today's the day I die love." "Please don't leave me again!" I beg.
"Y/N please say goodbye to me I'm not sure how much longer I can take this. Because the process of regenerating already started." I look at him. Sobbing I say "Doctor I love you more than anything. Even more than my own live. And that's why I'm gonna find a way for us to be together. I don't care how long it takes!" he gives me a sad smile "Y/N L/N I love with all my hearts and I wish we would have more time together so I could explain to you how much really love you but we haven't I have to go now I don't want to hurt you." he answers tears running down his cheeks. He turns around to run off but he than turns back to kiss me one last time. "I will love you for ever." he says and then runs off.
Now I stay here crying out all the tears I have again. 11 still stands behind me. He hugs me from behind "I'm sorry" he says I turn around to hug him back and cry into his chest. We stay like that for a while and then we jump back into the portal. We immediately go back to the Tardis. "Do you want me to sleep in your bed?" he asks me I try to smile and say "Yeah if you don't mind that I'll cry all night." "I'm there for you." he answers. "Thank you. You're always there for me." I say hugging him.
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That really was me when I saw his regeneration episode I cried the whole evening/night and I was depressed a week long. Like really everybody asked me if I'm ok and if I want to talk but no one except my aunt and uncle I see once a year watch doctor who so I couldn't even talk to anyone but anyways...I really love 11 I love him very much but not as much as 10 everytime I describe Y/Ns feelings for the doctor that's really how I feel about him:')
