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chapter two - Jake sully

I stay silent for a second.

" Jake?" Netyri lays her hand on my forearm. I look up at her. I don't want to move. This is what I have been secretly thinking about and now I am faced by the choice of actually doing it. "Um.. okay, I think I need to think" I speak finally. I think I need to think? what am I saying? I shook my head in confusion to my answer. This is such a serious question that has been brought up from my wife. "Jake, if you need time to think about it, okay. But I will not be letting go of this idea" Netyri says taking her hand off of my forearm. She smirks a little and continues with fish duties.

I'm still sitting there, blank minded. I'm not sure what to feel exactly. It's like a mix of sadness, betrayal, hesitation, fear, but all at the same time, numbness. It will be our choice, as neteyam's parents, to leave where he is buried to live for ourselves.

what could he be thinking about this? what will the kids think about this? will this come across as selfishness or careless?

These thoughts circle around my head speaking to me over and over again, until a voice pierces through.

"Jake." I feel a hand lay on the back of my shoulder. it's netyri. I turn around and hold her hand as i began to stand up.  "I'll do it, Netyri. We will venture for the sake of Neteyam." I smile at her still holding her hand. Netyri softly smiles at me that instantly puts me back to the moment at the tree of voices. "are you fucking joking?" a voice calls out and me and netyri face the voice. it's Lo'ak. God I need to stop cussing in english.
"lo'ak, language!" I yelled.
"venture dad? what do you mean venture?"
"like go explore, Lo'ak. Me and your mother will be talking about this as a family later"
"no tell me now! why are we going? neteyam's here. The people accepted us into their tribe, gave us a home, just for this reason!" Lo'ak snaps. i knew this would happen. Netyri is completely silent, i can feel her guilt radiating right off of her. I take a deep breath in, "we will talk to you about this with everybody" i exhale.
"whatever, this is stupid" lo'ak rolls his eyes and walks away to wherever.

"have we not made the right decision, jake?" netyri looks at me.
"we will see." I say to her.
I sit back down and netyri joins me. we're both still pretty silent with each other. But with the silence ir makes me think about the whole process and how difficult it's going to be. I'm gonna have to break it to tonwari and ronal that we are leaving. pack up everything, let the science people know that we will been moving on on our own.

...

The fish that we had caught have been cooked and ready to eat. Me, netyri, and only kiri and tuk come back. "where's your brother?" I ask the girls. They both look at each other and then around. "I don't know" Tuk says shrugging.
"I saw him talking with that girl" kiri adds.
"what girl?" me and netyri say at the same time.
"Tsireya." Kiri answers
Tsireya. I've know for a while that Lo'ak and tsireya have had this "fling" for now on. I'm still not sure if he's in good hands with her especially lo'ak and neteyam has been in a fight with her brother. Netyri does not approve of their relationship.
"They're still talking?" Netyri whispers to me. Even though she fell in love with me, a sky person, she doesn't approve with lo'ak's chance of mating with na'vi of a different tribe. She thinks it's not the omitikaya way.
"I guess so" I shrug in response. Netyri scoffs distastefully and continues eating.

...

we've finished eating and Lo'ak still hasn't came back.
"girls, i need you to find lo'ak and get him here, we're going to have a family meeting." I say.
"about what?" kiri asks. I can tell by her expression that she hates family meetings. She's hated it for a while now. There's absolutely no pride when i tell everybody to say sullys stick together.
"I will tell everybody the second that Lo'ak gets here."
"Tell me now just in case Lo'ak doesn't want to come back"
"Just get him please." why is Kiri making this difficult?
"that's why he's gone. He knows. it's something bad isn't it—"
"now, kiri" i cut her off. she scoffs and walks away, taking tuk with her.
I sit back down and netyri joins me.
"why did she make it so difficult when i just asked her if she could just go and get her brother?" I ask netyri without making eye contact.
"let's just hope he doesn't tell her before they come back." netyri responds.