I found our old conversations
Hidden away like dirty secrets
The nostalgia is crushing me
The urge to reach out suffocating me
I resist the temptation
Pushing my phone away
I will sound creepy,
When I say this
But I found your socials
Eagerly scrolling through years
Pictures of your life
Your perfect life
Without me
Without thoughts of me
It's better this way
I'm no longer in the way
Im unsure why I crave the reconnection
Doubting my mind
Pushing me back to a negative space
The place I don't want to fall back into
The darkness crawls up my throat
Purging itself into my lap
It's been almost 10 years
I can't let myself fall into this pattern
Why can't I let you go?
The way you have
So. Many. Times.
YOU ARE READING
Cut. Stitch. Heal. Repeat.
PoesiaTrigger Warning ⚠️ Mature Themes Self-Harm Depression Chronic Pain Anxiety Death Suicide
