immortals [book two]

love, not enough to stay

i'd spent many years after that attached to jessie, thinking one of us would run away if the other got to far away. year's of being with the same person every day slowly took it's toll on us.

we began to argue almost everyday, me and avery. i always said it's because we loved eachother to much. now i'm not so sure that was true.

"jessie, i can't deal with the constant fighting"
i had to leave, it changed me. i'm glad i found him again but we weren't right.

she was right, avery. she was so smart and she came up with so many amazing ideas. the special way she made pasta, the perfectly cooked toast. everything she did was just perfect, thought out, planned, precise.
"okay. what do you want to do?"

what did i want to do? leave? not again. but i couldn't stay. he was amazing, he did everything just right.
"i don't know. leave?"

"noone's stopping you avery."
that was a lie. i was stopping her.
i wanted to stop her
i wanted her to stay.

"okay, i'll be gone in 10 minutes"
he never fought for me to stay. did he even love me? i packed everything that didn't remind me of him into suitcase and went back downstairs.

"goodbye avery."
"goodbye jessie."
goodbye. that was it. she never looked back. i never chased after her. i just watched her walk away. a peice of my life gone, never to be found again.