Marvel comfort oneshots

our world (StuckyxReader)

Warning(s): self-doubt, panic attack/mental breakdown, mention of past self-harm, past cutting, past suicide attempt, swearing.

Pronouns: They/them-none/gender neutral

Nicknames: Doll, babydoll, my love, sweetheart, baby, honey, Pumpkin

Prompt/request: Y/n has a mental breakdown about the thought of not being good enough for Bucky and Steve, and thinking they hate her but are too nice to tell them and don't wanna hurt them, so they start avoiding Steve and Bucky trying to make being around them easier. The soldiers find their partner sobbing in the three of their shared bedrooms.

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You sit on the floor of yours, Bucky, and Steve's shared bedroom balling. You sit curled up in a ball, trembling, hugging your knees to your chest, hands over your head as if there was a tornado and you were trying to stop the building from crushing your skull, tears streaming down your face. You hear Steve and Bucky's voices from outside the door laughing and talking, 'I knew it, they do hate me, they are so much happier without me around.'  you think to yourself, sobbing even harder. You hear the boys walk up to the door still laughing, suddenly the two of them go silent, then hear a knock on the door, "Sweetheart, are you okay in there?" Steve asks from outside the bedroom door, you listen to them try to open the door, but you had it locked from the inside.

"Hey, babydoll, can you please open the door? We just want to make sure you okay. You have been avoiding us all week, and now you are locked in the bedroom crying, we are both worried about you." Bucky says concerned, "Go away!" You pout. "Honey, you know we can't leave you locked in there, last time you got like this you were slitting your wrists and to be rushed to the hospital because you almost died of blood loss. Please, baby, I can't just sit back and let you get to that point again, we almost lost you once, I can't take that risk again." Steve pleads, "I'm not hurting myself, I promise."

"But we don't want you to get to that point again, my love. If you want just one of us can come in or the both of us, and you don't have to say what's going on if you don't want to, but we are both here for you no matter what you have to say or what happened." Bucky tries to convince you, "Pumpkin we just want you to know how much we love and care for you." Steve adds. You wipe away your tears, getting up and opening the door, both of your boyfriends immediately pull you into their arms, trying to soothe you. You try to hold back your tears but fail, the brown-haired super soldier picks you up and carefully carries you over to the bed, the blond shuts the door and locks it so none of the other Avengers walk in, then walks over to the bed and cuddles with you and Bucky. The room is silent except for your crying and heavy breathing, neither of the boys dares to speak, not wanting to push you into talking.

The three of you stay like that until you calm down and stop crying, the soldiers still say nothing for about 20 minutes, "Doll, do you wanna talk about what's bothering you?" Bucky whispers, breaking the silence, well he plays with your hair. You nod, Steve kisses your forehead as if to say that he is there for you and loves you no matter what, without even actually saying the words. "I... I'm sorry..." you mumble barely audible, tears starting to fall down your cheeks again, "I'm sorry... for being so hard to deal with...  for being such a burden, for ruining everything... for putting you both through so much... and m-most of all I'm sorry f-for b-being such an h-horrible p-partner... I know you both h-hate being around me, a-and I u-understand why..." you sob struggling to speak while stumbling all over your words.

"Sweetheart..." Steve starts but he starts to tear up hearing how you think of yourself, he gently pulls you into his lap, hugging you tightly, you sob into Steves chest. Bucky wraps his arms around the both of you, you keep your head buried into Steve's chest, one arm wrapped around his torsos the other around Bucky. "We could never hate you, doll we both love you very much. You aren't a burden, you don't ruin anything. You are a wonderful partner." Bucky says softly, you shake your head in disagreement, "Yes you are, you are amazing. We are both here for you." Steve chimes in, "Really?" You question, "Yes, and anyone who dare tells you otherwise is a fucking bitch" Bucky says.

You smile, "Stevie doesn't like that language" you giggle, Steve playfully pushes you onto the mattress and pins you down, covering your face in soft kisses, "Bucky help!!" You scream, "Oh I'll help alright" Bucky says as he begins to tickle you.