12am, took sleeping tablets 3hrs later can still not fall asleep. scrolling threw my phone bored wondering why I'm still up? Why ? I'm tired, I scroll a little more until my phone is about to die it's now 4am. I rolled over and put my phone on charge and tirelessly put it on my side table and grabbed my container with my Tobacco, papers and filters and started rolling a cigarette I sat up and lit my cigarette smoking it to the tip letting the ash fall on me unfazed. I dabbed it out on my side table since my ashtray was on the other side and I could not be bothered moving.
I wiped the ash of me and onto the floor I got comfy in bed and tried to fall asleep I couldn't my mind was going crazy I couldn't stop thinking about stupid little things, I couldn't stop thinking about myself and how disgusting my body looks , my deep stretch marks on my arms, my fat thighs I HATE everything about my body there is not one day I do not think about how ugly and gross my body is. I was overthinking and to be honest that's the only way I can get to sleep it's like your brain is talking then you automatically fall asleep and you don't know how, weird right?
This dream of mine has already happed I've had this dream ages ago but parts of it are different. how can I remember this dream in my sleep again but forgot about it for a period of time ? Makes sense right ? No
Part 1 done
