I Just Wanted To Know Your Name

04

Well today is the day. I'm tired of hiding.

I get up earlier than usual and take a long shower, letting the hot water relax my muscles.

When I walk downstairs my mum is sitting at the table and drinking tea. "hey mum you're coming to the game tonight right?" I grab the back of a chair and hold it tightly my nerves getting the better of me. "of course love, why wouldn't I?" She looks at me a confused expression adorning her features "just making sure" I loosen my grip on the chair and sit next to her.

"Mum..I have to tell you something" I look at my hands on my lap "what is it hun? you can tell me anything" She rests a hand on my shoulder and squeezes my shoulder.

I keep my eyes glued to my lap afraid to look at her "I know it may disappoint you or you may be angry with me but it's okay..I know how you feel about people like me.." I take a deep breath and use every last bit of my confidence to look at her "Mum I'm gay" I wait for her to scream at me, tell me I'm a disgrace, kick me out of the house but instead I feel two arms around me and I'm pulled into her chest "Oh Louis, I'm not angry I'm proud of you. It's okay to be gay love"

I try to comprehend what's happening, after years and years of listening to my mum tell me that homosexuals are wrong and don't have the right to be with each other here she is holding me and telling me it's okay.

"I just want you happy, and if a man makes you happy then you deserve to be with him" By now we're both crying, I'm confused, and worried. She let's go of me and wipes her eyes "we're both being silly" She laughs.

I wipe my teary face and laugh quietly myself. Why did I even think my mum wouldn't accept me? My phone goes off in my pocket ruining the moment.

"Hello?" I answer not looking at the caller ID "Hey Louis" I smile when I hear the rough but gentle voice of Harry.

"do you wanna meet up for breakfast?" I hear the nervousness in his voice "Harry Styles are you asking me out on a date?" I smile wider and my mum looks at me a small smile on her face

"that depends baby, are you going to say yes?"

There's that nickname again

Baby

I stand up and walk outside "do I have to wear anything special?" "no what you have on will do just fine" I stop walking and my smile drops as I look around

I spot a black 2015 chevy camaro with a smug faced curly haired doof sitting in the front seat.

How the hell did he afford that?

I hang up my phone and walk over to him. I touch the car and walk around it inspecting it "if you're driving this I'll sure as hell go anywhere with you" He gets out of the car and smiles at me "good"

I watch as he walks closer to me. He presses me back against the car "you're still wearing the necklace" He looks at the necklace settling nicely between my collar bones. I look over his outfit, white button up, black jeans, converse. simple, but still looks amazing on him.

I look down at my outfit and frown, maybe I should've put a nicer shirt on. I'm wearing my black button up, blue jeans and white toms.

"you should show off this tattoo" He unbuttons the top two buttons of my shirt and exposes my 'It Is What It Is' tattoo "I really like it" His fingertips graze my skin and his eyes focus on my face.

"I really like you Louis" He whispers his breath on my lips. He presses his thumb on my bottom lip and softly kisses my cupids bow.

And then I passed out

Just Kidding!

We went to breakfast and then to the theatre and saw his favorite play.

He drove me home and stayed for lunch then came to my football match

And that's where my day went to shit

Everything was going good, great even, we were up by 3 points and in the 3rd quarter when it happened.

I was just about to shoot another goal when I felt something sharp hit my knee and before I knew it I was on the ground, not able to move. My knee locked up and I couldn't think of anything but the pain.

I tried to stand up but I couldn't. it was unbearable. It seemed like everything stopped, my head was spinning, it happened in slow motion.

Harry jumped the fence and ran over to me ignoring the coaches calls. "Louis you're going to be okay it's all going to be okay" He picks me up and carries me to the ambulance.

"Harry it hurts" I cry gripping my knee

"I know baby just don't think about it" He tries to soothe me

It doesn't help. Everything is still in slow motion. My head is pounding and my knee is throbbing

What even happened?

"Louis can you move your leg?" I try to move it but only result in me crying more.

This was supposed to be the perfect day. Everything was working out perfectly, and now here I am possibly out of football for the rest of the season all because of some dick head that doesn't know how to accept the fact that they suck at football.

"Louis we're taking you to the hospital okay? you're going to be okay love I promise" I look up at him as he talks "trust me" He whispers pressing a kiss to my forehead.

My heart flutters but a question burns in the back of my mind.

Do I trust him?

THIS CHAPTER SUCKS I'M SORRY GUYS

BYE LOVES xx