I Just Wanted To Know Your Name

08

I smile up at him "I love you too."

I finally say it

I finally breathe out the words I've been wanting to say for so long.

Suddenly my cheek stings and I'm on the floor.

I glance up at him before a foot meets the corner of my head and knocks me out instantly.

I push away from him, scared for my life and wake up, screaming and crying.

My mum runs in and over to me cradlimg me to her chest and singing to me.

I eventually calm down, and he rests a shaky hand on my shoulder, almost like he's scared I'll hurt him.

I turn and look at him. His cheek is bright red and his lip is split open.

Did I do that?

"l-lou are you okay?" His voice is thick with sleep and his eyes are glazed over with unshed tears.

I nod slowly and crawl onto his lap "did I hurt you?" I whisper to him frowning deeply "god Harry I'm so sorry.." "lou it's okay you were just panicking it's no big deal"

I shake my head "I hurt you.." I feel tears come to my eyes as I lightly cradle his cheek "Harry I'm sorry" I whisper, a few tears spilling over.

"hey hey hey no no baby don't do that it's okay I'm alright" He wipes away my tears and holds my cheeks in his hands "I'll be okay just a bit sore" He whispers "please baby it's okay" I hug him tightly, burying my face in the crook of his neck.

He rubs my back and rocks us back and forth slowly.

I feel the bed rise and hear my door close as my mum leaves the room.

"haz I didn't mean to hurt you" "I know baby I know" He keeps me against his chest, my face pressed in his neck and my hands planted firmly on his back, his skin warm under my cold hands.

"do you want to go back to sleep baby?" He whispers to me, gently massaging my shoulder blades.

I shake my head and hug him tighter "I don't want to hurt you again" He presses his thumb into my back and a moan escapes my throat, relaxing all my muscles against him.

"that feel good love?" I nod against him my lips parting slightly and soft puffs of air slip past, onto his skin.

"lay down and I'll rub your back Louis." He says to me and I nod slowly and lay on my bed.

I feel the bed dip down as he moves to straddle my bum.

Harry's POV

I lean down and rub his shoulders slowly.

I dig my thumbs into his shoulder blades earning soft moans and grunts along with him saying "harder"

Fuck, I'm so hard now.

"Harry stop" I faintly hear from below me.

I stop quickly "I'm sorry did I do something wrong?" He shakes his head "Harry I want you to make love to me.."

Louis' POV

I close my eyes and moan softly "harder" I whisper relaxing completely underneath Harry.

I love when Harry rubs my back, it always feel so so good

"Harry stop" I whisper and reach behind me resting a hand on his knee.

"Harry I want you to make love to me.." I hear a sharp intake of breath and he starts moving around.

He leans down and presses his chest to my back. His lips find my ear and he whispers "are you sure Louis?" He rubs my sides and kisses the skin around my ear.

I nod "I want it Harry, I know I do." I whisper

I moan quietly when he sucks lightly on my neck, behind my ear. "I love your moans baby" He whispers to me.

I whine quietly, feeling his weight being lifted off of me.

He walks over to the door and locks it "Louis are you completely sure you want this? this is a big step for you, for us even." I look at him "now you're making me doubt myself.."

He walks back over to me and sits on the edge of the bed "this is big Lou, losing your virginity, if you don't lose it to the one you love you'll regret it for the rest of your life."

I sit up and climb into his lap. I straddle his thighs and grab his hands moving them to my hips "I know what I want Harry" I slide my arms around his neck and look into his eyes.

I close my eyes and lean forward pressing my lips to his in a passionate, soft kiss.

"baby..I don't think you want this, I think you're just caught up in the moment" He holds my cheeks and looks into my eyes "I don't want to do this then have you regret it."

I frown "Harry I love you" My words shock him, a completely different demeanor washing over him, his face turning to one of confusion.

"you don't mean that, I know you don't.." I kiss him softly, trying to show him how I feel about him in the kiss.

After a few painfully slow seconds his lips move against mine.

I pull away slightly "I want us to be something Harry, I want us to mean something to each other, I want the stupid cute nicknames and the random hand holding and the lazy kissing in the morning and the love making and the good night texts and I want to wear your necklace in a different way, I want it to show that I'm yours, I want to call you mine, I want to steal your sweatshirts, I want to wake up to you in the mornings, I want to be able to shower with you and it's not weird because we're in love, not just two best mates. I just want whatever it takes to be yours and if that means giving myself to you I'm willing to do it."

I'm crying, the tears taste salty as they fall on my dry lips, and my hands are shaking as I play with his curls, it's weird to finally admit it all, to finally say that to him but, I've never meant something so much in my life.

I look at him, his eyes are red and tears are falling, his lips are parted and small sobs slip out.

"that's the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me." He sobs and hugs me tightly, his head laying on my shoulder.

Our bodies shake against each other and our sobs are the only sound that fill the room but neither of us could be bothered by it.

After what felt like hours we finally calm down and just hold each other close, saying everything with our light touches and lazy kisses.

"I want all of that too Louis, I want it all with you."

I smile widely "I love you, Harry"

He smiles "I love you more, baby"

His nose brushes against mine and a soft laugh leaves his lips "you're finally mine"

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been working on this for a few days, I'm pretty satisfied with it so here you go (:

I'm not back completely but, I thought I'd just give you guys something to be nice.

bye I love you all ♡♡