Beyond The Scenes

Jin

*Serendipity plays*

"The only time you should ever look back is to see how far you've come. Don't worry yourself. The end and beginning, beginning and end, are all
connected."

...

The wind curls around green leaves and brushes up against the sakura trees of Kumamoto Japan.
The sweet and savory smell of Spring is like the taste of homemade 빙수 and 송편.
...
The smell of 공연예술학부, 서울.

Jin lost himself in between those trees, those flowers, and that sunlight.

It was like he had found peace within himself for the first time.

He just wished if he could spend this precious moment with the people he had called family. Forever.

As his eyes began to shut, he fell into a deep sleep. So deep not even the sound of a paper clip touching the surfaces of a hard rock could wake him up.

...

The world started spinning, glass started shattering, and the wind began blowing.

He'd fall into a deep dark thick hole, onto something...soft?

Huh...He finds himself on a bed with white beddings, a night stand with a lamp on it and a window with large curtains draping over it.

Jin gets up off the bed, placing his feet on the floor. Looking around observing this.....vacuum.

He walked slowly towards a window in the middle of the room, removing the curtains that covered it and was shown...a galaxy.

It scared him.

Jin threw himself backwards, wanting to know what it was he was looking at.

It took a few minutes of thinking and contemplating this 'dream' he was experiencing.

He couldn't differentiate it from reality because it seemed so real.

It seemed like....

Home.

Getting up from the cold wood floors, he frantically ran around, screaming for help and banging on the walls.

Every inch, corner and crevice of the room was just a dead end.

"A dead end..."

Yes, a dead end.

There's no hope,.

Jin approaches the curtains once again. Gazing at this world...it felt like...heaven, but why was it so....scary??

He got so lost.

Angry

And...

Sad....?

But does it really make a difference?

He's lost himself in the real world, and even here.
When hasn't he?

Exploring this...space, it was almost like a never ending nightmare.

But...not a nightmare that scares you...a nightmare that's happy.

A nightmare that pushes you.

Maybe even a nightmare that helps find you...

He slowly stands up on one hand and both feet.

Jin: "Whats that sound?"

As he turns around, squinting his eyes. He sees a group of boys. Running around, laughing, giggling...smiling.

It fell silent.

The room around him started to change.

It became a classroom. Full of students and teachers.
Sunlight, that sweet sweet smell of Sakura trees and green leaves.

Spring.

"Hahaha!" It echos.

Turning around to see six boys sitting on the floor, the desks and on top of the chairs.

Jin tilts his head, and he smiles.

They seemed so happy to be around each other. Those were genuine smiles, genuine laughs and genuine love...

...

That feeling? It came back.

"He just wished if he could spend this precious moment with the people he had called  family. Forever."

They reminded Jin so much of them.

Could it be?

Them....?

It all started pouring in at once. It's like he could smell the memories. Even to the point where could see them.

"One, two, three four-.." Jin says underneath his breath.

"Five, six....and me..."

Everything around him stops. He looks at his feet then slowly at them.

Taking his finger and pointing it towards himself, he says

"Seven..."

Jin looks up to them staring at him. Did he do something wrong?

??: "You never learned, did you?"

Jin: "W-what?"

The boy pushes him.

Everything began shaking. The ceiling began peeling apart. And the floor beneath him starts to crack.

He fell.

Until he hit the ground.

...
"Is it over?" He thinks.

Opening his eyes he sees a six story tall building above him, and a shattered car beneath him.

"What's happening?" Jin says

He was just in a classroom, he was just at school, he was just with them but...now something's changed.

He's became sad again. But it's an unbearable type of sad. That type of sad where you feel like it's irreversible.

The type of sad where you feel as if you've lost all hope in society and the will to live.

"Did I....?"

Did you what?

It grew quiet. Sirens start to wail, red and blue lights start to flash. And Jin starts to question himself.

Blurry vision, bloody hands and a numb body.

He looks at the shattered glass beneath him.

Something doesn't feel right. Something's changed?

Yes Jin.....something's changed.

"Why am I not myself?" He thinks to himself

"Why am I even here?"

Trying to breath after such a hard fall, he turns his head and catches a glimpse of his face.

Jim's eyes widen, and his heart began to race.

Jin: "Jungkook?" Before he could fully take in what was happening, his eyes shut.

The sounds around him started to grow muffled and quiet until it was completely

Silent.

Even the readers thought you'd learn.

..........

I guess you'll never know until you go through it too.