Fifty shades of 1D- The sequel

Chapter 23

Allie POV

I could feel myself waking up and the familiar smell of the hospital filled my sences once again, what happend? why am i in here again? My eyes opened and at the end of my bed was Mollie who was hugging Niall because he seemed to be crying, was this just a dream? "Allie your awake! How do you feel?" Mollie asked running over to sit by the side of my bed,

"My stomach hurts, like really bad period pains" i wasnt lying, this pain was unlike any period pains ive ever had, surely i should be having period pains with the baby inside me... ooh wait "my baby? wheres my baby?!" i was suddenly paniking and was looking back and forth at Mollie and Niall waiting for one of them to talk, Niall started crying some more and walked out the room apologising.

"Allie you had a miscarriage, your baby is gone... im sorry" Mollie looked me in the eyes.

"What?" i asked weakly, suddenly the pains i was having in my stomach didnt feel half as bad as the pain i felt in my chest, my baby... my chance at happiness was gone, taken away from me before i could even try and protect it from things like this happening, before i could even see its face and feel it wrap its fingers around mine. I had a baby inside me for 2 months and now its just gone, this wasnt supposed to happen me and niall were supposed to get married and raise our baby together, why did everything bad have to happen to me?

"Im so sorry allie, there was nothing you could have done to stop it, sometimes these things happen, and trust me i know how you are feeling right now and i could tell you that in a few months you will have forgotten about it, but i would be lying because i still think about it to this day even though i have Alleisha now. But one day you and Niall will have a baby together, and sure it will never make up for this time but it helps to make you feel more alive again i guess? I know this isnt a very good pep talk but im trying my best to tell you the truth without it sounding to harsh." Tears were rolling freely down my face now, i couldnt stop. I let out a few sobs and Mollie hugged me in a right embrace, "do you want me to get Niall? hes pretty upset about this as well, and you need each other now more than ever" she said pulling away from the hug and handing me a tissue. As she said Nialls name i suddenly felt angry again, remembering our argument before all of this happend obviously.

"No, i dont want to see him" i said through gritted teeth, she looked at me surprised.

"Errm, okay then, well i need to go tell the others your alright, so i will be back in a few minutes, are you sure you dont want me to send him in so you can talk?" she looked worried,

"I will be fine" i replied still annoyed, she nodded and walked out the door. I oould hear her and Niall talking in the hallway, he was determined to see me but she wouldnt let him. I just wanted to be alone. I rolled onto my side bringing my knees up to my chest and holding my stomach that was now empty and let the tears continue to fall freely from my eyes. I just wanted my baby back, i didnt care what i had to do to get it back, it shouldnt have happend, why me? I heard a knock on the door but chose to ignore it, the door opened anyway.

"Baby? its me niall" i heard his voice coming up behind me, i didnt reply hust carried on crying, i couldnt stop the tears from falling. I felt him get on the bed and lay down next to me hugging me from behind and putting his hands on my stomach.

"Dont touch me." i managed to say between sobs. His hands slowly removed themselves from my stomach, it surprised me when i didnt feel sorry for him after what i have just said.

"Allie please dont do this now, we need each other now more than ever" he got up from the bed and started pacing back and forth. I was so angry all of a sudden i snapped,

"WE WOULDNT EVEN BE IN HERE IF IT WASNT FOR YOU!" I shouted at him, he stopped pacing and looked at me confused.

"What?"

"YOU LEFT ME FOR 2 MONTHS ON MY OWN WHILE I WAS PREGNANT THEN CAME HOME AND STARTED ARGUING WITH ME! YOU STRESSED ME OUT AND NOW MY BABY IS GONE! ITS YOUR FAULT NIALL!" I screamed still holding my stomach and crying hysterically.

"Allie lease dont be like that, it was my baby as well and i would never have left you if i would have known this would be the result, please forgive me baby"

"Niall i cant do this anymore, i dont want to see you again" i sobbed, i didnt know why i was saying this but it just came out, maybe it was because i was so upset.

"b-b-but i-i love you" he stuttered, i still didnt feel bad for what i am doing to him.

"Niall please just leave, maybe one day we can sort things out but i dont want to see you right now" i rolled back over into the possition he disturbed me from earlier, still crying but more if that was even possible. I heard the door close then reopen a few minutes later, who was it this time, why could everyone just leave me alone?

"Its me mollie, im back" she sat down on the chair next to me, "Niall told me what happend, but your only saying that because you are upset, he loves you so much allie dont let him slip away from you"

"how am i supposed to look him in the eyes everyday and know that he could be the reason i lost my baby, i cant do it mollie"  i didnt even make eye contanct with her.

"what?" she looked confused.

"If he didnt leave me for 2 months then come home and start an argument with me then i wouldnt have been this stressed and that could have saved my babies life" she didnt reply she just handed me more tissue to wipe away my tears. "Could you get Louis for me? i need to talk to him" i said inbetween sobs.

"Yeah sure, i will send him in" she smiled and left. A few moments later and Louis walked in.

"You alright babe?" he was always so happy to see me,

"Been better, anyway i need to ask you something and you cant tell anyone about it okay?" i made eye contact with him to let him know i was serious.

"Sure, what is it? what can i help you with?" he sat on the arm of the chair next to my bed and took my hand in his, why was he so easy to talk to, i felt like i could tell him anything right now and he would take away the pain for a while and make me smile again.

"You have a beach house right?"

"Yeah, why? i havent been there in a while but its still mine" he sounded confused.

"Can i live in it for a while? I need to get away from everything, i need time alone to get over this" his smile dropped into a frown.

"Erm, yeah sure i will take you down there when you are allowed out" he didnt look to happy with what he was agreeing to.

"Thankyou lou" i smiled "but nobody can ever know where i am alright? or they wont leave me alone and thats all i need, some time alone to think things through" he nodded but still didnt look convinced. "You swear on Alleisha's life you wont tell anyone?"

"Please dont make me do this allie, i cant swear on my babies life" he pleaded.

"I need you too lou, its the only way i know you will keep your promise" i knew i was being unreasonable but i would do anything for time away from everything.

"Okay! I swear on Alleisha's life i wont tell anyone" he sighed and settled down in the seat.

"Thankyou! Now i need you to help me get out of here"