STRANGER DANGER || book 2 || Minsung ff

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Jisung's P.O.V:

Me and Ms. Jeon went for a handshake, smiling pretty professionally to each other.

"Uhm....i don't want to be rude but may i request for Mr. Lee and his fiancé to be out for a while? I want our conversation just for the two of us only. As per the counseling's protocol". She spoke in her best professional tone to my brother, Felix eventually responded a nod to her. Him and Hyunjin went out of the office and soon, it's only me and this lady inside.

"Was it really necessary to shoo them?" I asked, getting a bit alerted to what may happen soon.

"Yes. Also, as i said per the protocol, the counselor and the client supposed to have a privacy while In the middle of the session." She explains well, putting off a bit nervousness in me.

"Okay. Great to know". I nodded boringly. I saw her head looking down once again and flipped some folder open and read for quite some time before she glanced back at me.

"You're Han Jisung, right?" She started asking me.

"Yes".

"And you're 27 years old. Birthday's on September 13, 2000". She continued which, obviously, i answered the same thing.

"Yes".

"After this, I'll be questioning you things pretty personal about your life. Just tell me if you're not ready to answer those questions and i will understand it. Do you agree with my terms?"

I hold back for a while to think about some things. She'll be asking me pretty personal things. And the thing i hate the most in life, is when people are prying in my life, pointing their noses in my business. I like what I have just to be kept by me. Because when people force me and ask me things about myself, I won't even notice I've done something that had fucked 'em up.

But that was my bad habit i had to let go. I need to be good now and forget this monster identity living in me. For Felix. For myself. For the people i've hurt before.

For Minho.

After all, maybe this won't hurt at all. Maybe....opening up would actually heal me from my history. Maybe it's time to put out all these heavy weights in my shoulder and open up.

"Yes, Ms. Jeon." I nod to seal our agreement, giving her the green light to go ask me. She gave me a warm smile before she put her eyes on the paper in front of him.

"Good to hear. Alright, here's the first. When was the first time you had all these psychotic thoughts your brother have mentioned?"

When she dropped the question, it made me look at her face and observe her. I observed if i ever...get to see, even just for a tiny bit of judgment in her face. Because if she do......

I will not hesitate to stab this little pen in her holder on her ne-NO! JISUNG! GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD RIGHT! STOP ALL THIS SHIT! C'MON, THIS WOMAN IS INNOCENT!

But then i saw nothing in her face. She was instead, genuine to listen to my story. It gave me bits of confidence to speak up and to throw that little deadly thought who tried crossing my head.

"When....when i fell for him". I confessed, embarrassment washing all over me when i remembered that huge mistake i did in the past.

"Him who?"

My thumb pointed at the door. "Felix".

I saw her eyes slightly widened but it was quick to reshape on its original form. "How come?"

"Before you misunderstand, in that moment, i was clueless that he was actually my brother. It was one hell of a ride revelation but that's a complete different story so anyways, he was my savior from my bullies way back when i was 15. And that became the reason for me to fall for him. And that teeny weeny crush, unfortunately, turned into an unhealthy obsession. I started following him all day long, just keeping on tailing him. The usual stalker vibes, you know? But that didn't stop there and i wasn't feeling satisfied with that kind of proximity. I wanted him close to me. But then that time, some people have tried to pursuit Felix and i was just.....in rage of jealousy. And that jealousy has turned me into a monster, leading me to commit such harmful things to those people. Initially, it was just threats and blackmails, but the more i see them with Felix, the more my jealousy was becoming sick and devious. The threats turned into harming, and harming turned into assaulting, then assaulting......turned into killing." I was so out of my space to notice that I'm already smirking viciously recalling those memories. It was like....an art gallery i was having the time of my life taking a picture of them. "I did many things afterwards then started stalking Felix. But i stopped when we finished college and Felix started working. I tracked him down at the coffee shop he's working at and applied as a barista there to keep a close distance with him. There, i tried befriending him and be the jolly Jisung they know and at night, I will be his creepy stalker following him in the dark. But yeah, it all stopped when i figured he was actually my half brother." That was a long explanation and i have no idea if Ms. Jeon was able to catch up from those. But i only saw her nod then wrote things on her paper. Then her eyes travelled back to me.

"Base from your story, i could've say you've changed and at least, you stopped take a liking over Felix but the problem is, your inner demon is still there. And that's where we're gonna focus at. On how will you let go of that darkness still lurking inside you". It was all well stated that it made me impress on her profession. But somehow, anxiousness started fogging in my chest once again with downfall thoughts exploding my head.

"Y-Yeah. But...I'm scared. W-What if i really can't let this d-demon in me go? W-what if i didn't change at all? What if this doesn't work?" My hands quivered and my throat dried, and she was fast to notice it and tried to fastly take action to calm me down with her words.

"Jisung, I'm here to help you. That's why you're here. We're here. But i can't make that inner demon of you suddenly disappear. I'm gonna be needing your help in this. We're gonna make it work, okay? Trust me." She said in her best convincing tone that made me believe we can do this. That we can make this plan end up best. And he did that without her teaching while I'm shaking. Good thing she didn't. I really don't fancy whenever I'm having this attacks and people would touch me. She's really good in her profession. And that helped me to calm down, agreeing with her.

"O-Okay". I nodded.

"You want to get better, right? You want to correct those mistakes? You want to be the better version of yourself?"

"Yes! Yes i want it!"

"Then, are you ready to commit to this therapy for your wonderful make-over?" Her words are really encouraging and her smile made me believe that we really could get through this and that i can trust her.

For Felix. For the people i've hurt before. For change.

For Minho.

"I am, Ms. Jeon. I'm ready".

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I'm so sorry for the late upload, we have been busy with our schedules, i hope you understand:)). Anyways "for minho"😊