STRANGER DANGER || book 2 || Minsung ff

6

Jisung's P.O.V:

Another day have started and honestly, it's really weird for me not being able to hear noises of cussing and chaotic fighting ringing into my ears like an alarm every single morning i wake up. I wander my eyes outside the cell and there'll be some blood dripping down the floor and splattered on the wall and i used to call that scene "splendid".

And i've never thought I'll be even more glad to wake up with that type of noise...

Than this one that woke me up from my slumber.

"FUCK H-HYUNG!~"

"Shit baby, your hole is so perfect for me. So good!"

"You fuck me so well hyu- AHH HYUNG! HYUNG~!"

That.....and many more unmerciful noises echoed through the thin walls. Remind you all that I'm on the first floor, while their room is on the second, and they're still THAT loud!

Goodness. They've probably forgot they adopted me.

I groaned louder as my brother's moans elevated, pushing the pillows to my ears that are probably bleeding now, metaphorically. 

Dang, the fact that i used to dream me and Felix doing the same shit. URGH it's so disgusting! I can feel the hairs on my skin crawling up.

Thinking about sex, it made me wander towards Minho.

If you guys are gonna ask me if we did something like what Hyunji and Felix does, the answer is....

No.

We didn't.

Because at that time, i was reserving myself to Felix because i see him the only person I'll surrender myself to. Turns out, it was the biggest mistake I've ever did.

But we did some kissing and...uhm...oral. But that's just it. I never intended to go further. And Minho, he didn't force me upon it. He respected my decisions.

And i am so stupid for letting such man slip from my fingers.

But what can I do? I'm an evil person who shouldn't be ended up with an angel. He's too good for someone who is nothing like me. He's so pure, while I'm so fake. I played with his feelings. I toyed him. I lied to him. I broke his trust.

And the worst of all, i broke his heart.

However, i think we're better this way. Who knows? He....he probably have someone already there in Japan.

Please no.

There's probably someone... who's taking good care of him.

I hope none.

There's probably a new hands and face he's holding now and kissing.

Please stop saying things like that! I'M HURTING! YOU'RE HURTING YOURSELF, JISUNG! YOU'RE HURTING YOUR SUNGIE! THE SUNGIE WHO STILL LOVES MINHO UNCONDITIONALLY! WHO STILL LOVES MINHO AFTER ALL THESE YEARS!!

But was too late to realize because he was too blinded with his aggressive obsession.

The sungie who regrets to have to live in Jisung's body.

Without noticing, tears are already falling one by one from my eyes. They kept on dripping and it hurts. My heart hurts. My heart hurts so bad in guilt.

"M-Minho. I'm so-sorry, hyung. I'm sorry y-you had to l-love someone like m-me. I'm s-sorry for being too c-coward. I'm sorry f-for being d-devil. But i p-promise.

I'll c-change for y-you. I-I'll change for myself. F-For Felix who be-believes that i can still c-change." I buried my sobbing face on the pillow, soaking the poor thing to wet with my pitiful tears.

No matter how long my therapy will gonna be, I'll bear it. I need to fight it. I can do this. I can change myself. I will lose the devil i used to live in me inside. I will be the better version of myself. I will let go my past and focus to the future that awaits me.

And I hope.... he's still waiting for me.

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*MORNING*

"Ji? Ji? Hey, Jisung wake up. You gotta need to prepare for your appointment." I felt my body was being shaken by Felix, bringing my sleeping presence to the reality. My eyes slowly fluttered, rubbing them as they adjust from the light.

"What time is it?" I groggily asked, yawning while sitting up.

"It's 10 am. Kinda late now to wake up. Do you usually wake up at this time when you were in.... jail?"

"Uhh no. It's usually 7 or 8 but uhh.....something made me sleep late earlier midnight." My eyes thinned as i looked sheepishly at Felix. It didn't take him too long to puzzle my riddle and that brought his cheeks to heat up, eyes widening.

"Oh Gosh, i-i'm..... I'm sorry you had to hear tho-"

"It's fine. Haha. Although...yeah, it's actually not fine. But that's your guys' business so, I'm not interfering on whatever the hell you guys want to do on each other. Just keep it down next time, alright?" I pat Felix's shoulders, laughing to see how shameful he is.

"Alright. I'm really sorry, Ji. Not gonna happen again." He hissed, shyly walking towards the table. "Anyways, I've cooked you breakfast."

"Thanks. I'm just gonna go to the bathroom." I scurried all the way to my mentioned destination, done some of business and there (like peeing and brushing my teeth) and get back to the dining area where all the prepared dishes are laid down. Gosh, they all looked mouthwatering. Expected from a chef himself.

"Your appointment is at 11:30, right?" Felix asked me as i sat down.

"Yeah. Ends at 1:30 or 2? I'm not really sure. She said it depends whether we need to do some activities that could help me from...mending my broken personality."

He nods. "Alright. I'll ask Hyunjin to pick you up for that since I'm still at work at that time."

"You're still the boss in the kitchen, huh?" I smirked while getting a bite of rolled omelette he made.

"I got my minions there. You should meet them. They are incredibly loud and too much to handle, but are good in their work so I'm good with them." Felix smiled.

"Even if i would want to, Chan wouldn't let me." My lips immediately flipping down, our tension suddenly filled with bitter gloom.

Great. I've ruined the good day.

"Oh C'mon, Ji. Chan is not mad at you anymore–"

"He might not be but i know deep inside he still wouldn't want to see me. After all i did to him and to the other guys, for sure he still hate me to guts."

"Ji–"

"Let's just drop this, Lix. We still have an appointment to catch up on, right?" I forced a smile out of me. I saw hesitance and worry in his face but decided to keep it, nodding at me. I sighed heavily.

If only I could go back time, i wouldn't do such things to you all, guys.

But no matter how many times i pray, it wouldn't happen still. Well at least i learned from it.

And if that didn't happen, maybe i didn't meet Minho hyung as well.

Minho....

I really fucking miss you, my adorable old cat.

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WE'RE FINALLY BACKKK AFTER A LONG LONG LONGGG HIATUS T__T
I MISSED THISSS