How one decision can change your life... (janoskians fanfic) ON HOLD

Chapter 12

I woke up with an arm around my waist, I softly turned around. that's where I see a sleeping James, It makes me smile. sleep is a pretty thing, when you sleep you never worry. you don't think about your problems, you're just sleeping. no one can complain to you, it's just you with a dream. sometimes I wish I could sleep forever, to just forget about all my problems. but unfortunately I can't, every morning I have to wake up with the same problems.

I just lay in bed watching james sleep, thinking about everything that happened yesterday. I graduated, beau got mad and james confessed he liked me. well like he says he loves me... I really don't know what to do about this. I love him but not like that i think? I have beau, but all beau does is complain. he didn't even thought about yesterday. that made me remember i still had to reply to him, that will come later. why am I even still laying here? is it bad that I'm laying in bed with my best friend? yeah that's bad he has feelings for you and here you are cuddling with, what if he thinks you have feelings for him to. you have a boyfriend for godsakes. oh god I really have to stop talking to myself. I decided to get out of bed, I don't want this to get even worse. I walked downstairs. I walk to the kitchen and start to make pancakes for us all. soon after I started to make them james walked in. but he stopped in the door

"hey? " I smiled questioning why he stopped

"he" he smiled back he looked down to my legs I followed his gaze and realized I wasn't wearing pants but only a shirt

"I'm sorry, i should have thought about it" I said I have to think about these things now I know James likes me

"it's okay" he said walking further in

"did I wake you up?"

"well it went cold when you got out of bed" he said making me blush

"you're cute"

"i know" he smiled "are those chocolate chip pancakes?"

"yeah they are"

"oh my god" he said making me laugh. he grabbed one of the stack

"he can't you wait?"

"nope" he said taking a bit "these are delicious"

"I know" I said smiling I placed the last pancake on the stack, I made an little stack for esmee and putted it in the microwave. I made a plate for me and for james "can you get some drinks out of the fridge?" I asked james and he walked over to the fridge getting 2 bottles of juice out of it, I was already walking into the living room and james was following me I think. I said down on the couch and james placed himself next to me. he putted the drinks on the table and I gave him one of the plates.

"you don't use a fork or knife?"

"why would I?" I said taking bites of one of the pancakes

"you're amazing" james laughed

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it was already 3pm and james and I did nothing but sitting on the couch watching tv. I did change at some point, I putted on a sweatpants and I stole one of james his sweaters. which was way to big on me, but I liked the feeling of it. esmee woke up at like 12pm and went out with friends, she would be gone till late. so it was just me and james the whole day, it didn't get awkward. I still saw James as my best friend even though he had a crush on me. I didn't acted different and I know james wouldn't want me to. but I knew things I did before in front of James I couldn't do anymore. it is a compliment someone like James likes me, but it's also complicated. you start to think do I like him to? but I can't like him because I got Beau. but spending time with James was just so nice, I could be myself around him. he makes me laugh when I'm sad, he is there when I need someone. and where is beau? he didn't fly all the way here to support me. I only just noticed I was staring at james, james turned his head around to me