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It's been a while.

I don't know where to start... I don't know if anyone would read this, but if you see this, please do take your time to read this chapter.

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It's been more than 1 year since my last update. I'm sorry for leaving you all. At first, I was just busy. As time went by, I lost my motivation to write. I did not want to leave this account. Things were just beyond my control.

As things were going down, Sutopuri faced a... rather serious problem. I know that you know what I'm talking about so I won't elaborate further.

From this part on, I will be honest with you all.

I admit, I stopped listening to Sutopuri after that incident. I genuinely cried for several nights because of that. Overall, I stopped watching them, I turned off the notification bell on both YouTube and Twitter, I stopped viewing their profiles, heck, I even stopped opening Twitter. I stopped everything.

I was really devastated.

I tried to distract myself by watching something else, and eventually... I forgot about them. It pains me as well just thinking about it.

But then, just a few weeks ago, I saw their "Welcome Back to the Parade" MV on my YouTube. Just the thumbnail alone was enough to make me feel emotional. And so, I watched it. The whole MV hits hard especially at times like this.

I started listening to all of their songs and individual albums again. From the first and up to the last. And boy, it was a huge rollercoaster of emotions.

I remembered how hyped I was whenever there was a new song announcement, how I stayed up until 4AM to watch their Twitcasting, and how I wrote stories about them and enjoyed every bits of it. And then I realized, even after a year, even after everything has changed, my love for them were still here. Buried and forgotten, but never erased.

They gave me so much comfort, they gave me happiness, and I want to experience that all over again.

I want to know them again. I want to feel those emotions again. But I know that I'm still not okay. I had to take breaks while listening to their songs because of how hard I cry. I missed them so much...

I can't do anything about this right now. I do hope I will feel better soon. And I hope you will, too, if you're in the same situation as me. Let's recover together.

And regarding this book, no, I'm not discontinuing this. Instead, I want to try writing stories again. Updates will be irregular, though.

I know some of you came to like this book, and I am deeply sorry for disappointing you. And I know a number of you have already left this app, and I sincerely hope that they're living a good life, better than mine, if possible.

For those who patiently waited for a year and a half, I can proudly say that I am back now. I, at the very least, would like to finish all of my fics here before leaving for good. So let's all enjoy our time here.

Nice to meet you all again.

Tadaima...

- Kai