love or lust

 
Do you ever hold yourself so tight in night because you want to be
made felt that you are being loved by yourself just because nobody
does that?

It's a beautiful morning and everything in your life is so good. You go
to college, you are being bullied by the seniors. There are 5 people in
total, one of the person looks handsome and hot , looks like he is very attitudeous; short tempered;horribly rude and romantic and you don't have any friends because it's your first day at the college. You hear those people saying that you are really ugly, fat so and so. You went to your class and it starts to happen daily. You feel real sad, very sad that you are just starting to hate yourself and everyone around you, that makes you a very private person.
Days later, It's the culturals in your college. You wear a very comfortable fabric around your beautifully structured, untouched, perfect body. You go to college wearing that gorgeous saree in which you look pretty and hot.

Enjoying the whole evening of that day and chit chatting with your
female friends. When you and all your friends go to the rest room and
return, you look at those bullies standing and doing their stuffs. When you girls cross across them they start bullying everyone of you and you guys were just ignoring and passing them.You were noticed!!

Suddenly those bullies surround all girls and they ask you to stand and
others to move. Others are really scared to leave you alone but they
had to. It's the situation where there is no one, literally no one aroundand you got stuck with the good looking bullying bastards. You are
scared but you don't show it out because you knew that you are not
ugly and their thoughts are. The boys around the hot bullies start to
say somethings about you but that is not what you had heard these
many days. "YOU LOOK SO HOT TODAY, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? DID YOU WEAR MAKE UP?" A hand comes to touch your face not gently
but you can see the hands just wanna grab you with lot of lust, you
start to panic, but another hand comes to your rescue. It's the hot
looking bastard who had just keep starring you from the beginning, he
shooed his friend's hand. He asked everyone to go but not you. OH,
HELL!! Rescued from a bull but got caught to a lion. He's just starring
at you. You could see his eyes gleaming with what he wants to do to you. His eyes which directly looks into yours. You put your head
down. The presence with him is just very lustful. You can feel the
tension there. The distance between you two is just reducing. You
move back, back and back untill you get against a wall. There is no
talk, your eyes move in the course of his hands which lands across the
wall high above your head. You want to move but your legs doesn't
cooperate. You also have this feeling that you want this to happen.
You want to kiss him and feel his breath across your cheeks. You wish
to hold his shirt so tight and never let the distance between you
evade. But you move. It was the moment you didn't know what you
did was correct or wrong. You can feel the heat of his hand in your
uncovered waist. You can feel your heart throbbing. The moment he
gets near you, you look at his eyes, There is no love. What you just
look is the eyes that once bullied you, the bastard who made you hate
yourself. There is a sudden disgusting feeling, you hate him near you.
But it's quite late. You can feel his breath. You can feel his lips againstyours, they are not gentle. You feel that its is very wrong. Controlling yourself, you push him away and give him a tight slap. He, as said is a very short tempered person. Rich ass guy with a bad temper who got a nice slap from a average girl. That is a kind of situation where u should never get yourself to. He turns in a slow motion with a powerful rage in his eyes which indicates you totally messed up. The hands, his hands that catches your arms forcefully in a speed of a light and pushes you to the wall. There is no enough energy in you to push his powerful, fit body. You could see his veins in his wrist which passes through the black shirt of his. And the eyes which was once full of hunger is now scaring you. He is holding your both the cheek in on hand and enjoys that you are afraid of what is going to happen to you. He is on his way to kiss you but yours hands tries to stop him. His other hand takes both your hands above your head pressing against
the wall. His lips pressing against yours very forcefully and deeply. The part of you wants it but you are not ready to accept it. It feels good.
His other hand just grabbing you near him by your waist.

The eyes just closes, you are going into a deep sleep with this satisfied
feeling like that really happened to you. A feeling that the urge of
your age is just fulfilled. This is how all you nights are gonna be. You
are going to fall asleep with this satisfaction which is totally
imaginary.
             
                 GOODNIGHT!!!