Living like this was a living, breathing fully alive hell. Ashton hated the fact that he couldn't save Sierra no matter what he did, and now he's in prison for a killing that had to be done if he wanted to live. He didn't mean to kill the boy..... It was an accident, he was only going to grab the gun. He didn't think it would go off.
The boy lay on the bed and roll over, facing the wall and closed his eyes once more, falling into a troubled sleep.
*****
He watched as Sierra fell to the ground. Watching as if everything were in slow motion. Quickly he kneeled next to her, tears springing imeadiatly to his eyes.
"No, no, no," he choked out pulling the brunette to his lap, caressing her cheek and letting a tear fall, "No, Sierra, no."
There were tears in her eyes, masking the look of feelings ranging from fear to pain, "A-Ash..." she winced holding her side. The wound was bad.... And he knew it.
"S-Shh..... Don't talk Sierra, p-please," more tears and more fear free for the both of them. The young man with the gun had ran, down the alleyway next to the theater, sitting with his head in his hands.
"Kiss it all better, I'm not ready to go," Sierra cried knowing she wasn't going to survive.
"This-This is all my fault," the shaggy haired boy choked out clinging to the love of his life
"I-it's not your fault, love. You d-didn't know, you didn't know," she smiled weakly, holding her hand to the cheek of the boy she'd learned to love from the start. Her hands were cold, deathly cold. She was dying, and they both knew that.
Ashton raised his hand to hold the one resting on his cheek, letting the salty water from his eyes flow down his cheeks onto their hands.
Kissing her face he muttered shakily, "Everything will be alright," he watched as her eyes closed, as the light disappeared. He let out a sob and held the girl's lifeless body to his chest, clutching onto the one thing he had left to fight for.
"Sierra no, I can't lose you, p-please. God no, please!" he sobbed, everything had stopped. The world froze, he stopped breathing, wishing it was him instead of her. As he leaned over her letting the tears fall from his eyes, splashing onto her cold skin, "Baby please, come back..... I-I love you..... I can't do this without you, please!"
The world was dead to him in that moment, this man had torn his life, his world apart. He sat there, holding the love of his life letting the tears flow.... Wanting his life to end to be with her.
Not gonna lie, teared up writing this
