Don't Leave Me Again..

Chapter Three

When I got back from my run, I walked to the kitchen and grabbed the plate I knew mom put in the microwave. I sit on one of the bar stools, I push the food around for five minutes before just throwing it out.

Since becoming a model, I really watch my diet, which means I basically never eat but always work out. Mom comes into me throwing my food in the garbage.

"Did you eat any of it?" She asks me. I just tell her I'm not hungry and I'm going to shower after I put my plate in the dishwasher. I hear her walk back to the living room. I can hear whispering, so I sneak around the corner and see her sitting with dad, Thomas, Pops, Tig, Wendy, and Abel.

"She stopped eating again, didn't she?" Mom asks Thomas. After Jackson got locked up and girls at school were talking shit to me about my weight.

I basically quit eating and dropped a lot of weight, and that comes to where one of my problems with Abel comes from. He told my dad that he would see me throwing my food away whenever he was around me after everyone left the room, so he and mom started watching me, and then everything blew up.

They put me in therapy, and I got "better" well, I did until I wasn't getting shoots because I was a little chubby. So after a year and a half of trying to get gigs, I went back to old habits. I will eat a yogurt a day, have an ice coffee, and then drink water the rest of the day.

Not caring to hear anymore of their conversation, I walk back to my room and then walk into the bathroom to shower. Jackson and my room both have a connecting door to the bathroom, and then it also has a door to the hall. When I come out of the bathroom to my room, Abel is sitting on the edge of my bed.

I walk over to my bag that's on the dresser so I can grab some clothes. I think to myself I need to put my clothes away. I wrap my towel tighter around me when I have to bend down to pick up my panties that fell from my pile. When I packed, I packed outfits so they were together.

When I pulled my shirt out, I dropped my panties because I only slept in a t-shirt and panties, but because I was so sidetracked by Abel being in here, I forgot they were together.

"Get out." Is all I say before walking back to the bathroom to get dressed. When I hear the door open and close. I walk back into my room and grab my brush from my dresser. As I'm brushing my hair, the door flies open. I turn around and get lifted up by my legs and set down the dresser.

"You drive me crazy you know that." Abel says to me matter of factly. Then, he pushes his lips to mine. I wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around my neck. A knock on my door startles me, and I pull away from Abel.

"If your daddy sees him in here with you dressed like that, he'll kill him." Mom laughs, then pulls the door shut. I set my head against his neck, trying to catch my breath. Abel laughs and runs his fingers up and down my thighs.

"I need to ask you somethin." He says then pulls back from me.

"It's happening again, isn't it? You threw your yogurt out this morning and then Ashlynn said you didn't eat dinner." He asks, and I push him away from me.

"Fuck you Abel, get out." I say then hop off the dresser and walk to the bathroom locking the door then go to the other two doors to lock.

What was I thinking, how could I be so stupid.

"God damn it." I hear him yell through the wall. Then hear my door open and slam shut. I unlock the door and open it slowly just as I open it my door opens so I pull the bathroom door closed.

"Sweetheart it's just me." Mom says through the door I open the door and her arms are already opened waiting for me.

Mom and I stay up talking for little over an hour last night while I was putting my clothes away before dad came to tell her he was going to bed. Mom kissed my head before telling me goodnight told me she'd wake me up when she got up so we could go have a girls day.

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I wake up to mom knocking on my door and I tell her I'll get ready. When I opened my door I peak out mom's standing in the kitchen across from my room she tells me dad already left and no one but us are here.

Thomas is a workaholic so he found a couple jobs a couple towns down and got up and went to work even on vacation. He sent me a text last night while I was talking with mom that he was getting up early and wouldn't be back until after dinner because he was going to eat with Wendy.

Mom and I are getting breakfast at the diner in town. So we both drank a cup of coffee and then headed to the diner. She wants to take me somewhere in public so I'll actually eat, we went through this after I started going to therapy.

"Gracie don't get mad but I think you should give modeling a break until you can get back on track. Your beautiful and a perfect model but look at what it's doing to you. You look lighter now than you did when you left or even when I saw you a couple months ago." I listen to every word, I knew this was coming so I let her finish. I've thought about this alot.

"My contract ended three days ago. So I won't have any gigs until I go back anyways that's give me a couple months to get back on track mom. My weight is yeah. I know, but I feel good." I say to her, and she nods at me. The waitress comes over, and I order a salad, and mom rolls her eyes, so I add an order of fries.

"Are you excited to see Jackie?" Mom asks me. We had two days until Jackson came home, and I couldn't be more excited.

"It's gonna be weird to see him without a jumpsuit on." We both laugh and talk about Jackson until our food comes.