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𝙋𝙖𝙧𝙩 15// 𝙞𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙨𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙖 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙛𝙚

Matts Pov

Ever since I  have been with him it has seemed like heaven, it is but the thing I struggle with about my life is just thinking about my past as worse as it comes up again it's bullshit and it's like I'm the same dirtbag I was before.

           Just sharing how I feel is kind of like my mouth is being taped but I could still say something. After having fun with guys that last valentines day I feel like I'm on top, but still, in my heart, I  feel like that same 13-year-old boy lost out of his mind trying to figure his shit out.

               Every day I say to myself why do I hide?, am I the same piece of shit " she " would call me, or was it that I was still thinking about the nonsense of it all. Here I am talking about stuff that has nothing to do with my current life but still, I have a feeling like I wasn't able to do anything about it."

                   what's wrong matt are you ok?" I look up to see a worried 12-year-old boy, the one I fell for and the one I want to be with for the rest of my life, but still, am I dreaming? " yea, I'm fine" "oh ok, you seemed lost". To be honest I probably am but I'm not good at expressing my feelings somehow.

        Theirs no words of explaining how wonderful a person could be for always staying with me no matter what I did. I am so happy to have this chance to be with someone who loves me the same way, " hey you joined Illusions !, I see your sleeves" yea I did it cause of you." yea      ( ///)" but then we walked together into the sunlight as two young boys figuring out what they want to be.

               I wake up with gus on top of me, he looks dead asleep so he must be getting a lot forest, I don't understand what the point of the dream was but it was the moment we were bonding more and maybe I was getting used to him a lot but still, I knew somewhere deep in my heart I felt a spark.

                 I feel kinda better but I think it's time to get some more rest, I know I've been on my ass these couple of days but I know when I will be ready to go out with him again and do things that we need to do because we were meant and hopefully I will be able to be a good example for our kid cause that's what I want to be.

Gus pov

To be honest, I felt matt get up from the sheets, I don't know how the hell I got pregnant or why I'm hungry as shit but I'm not saying anything cause he's probably having one of his moments.

            It feels like we have had sex like a thousand times but I still feel good again I still don't know how I got pregnant I'm kinda shocked I thought we were just going to adopt but I guess something different was coming ( fandom magic ) I can't wait to have a child with him though after he stops becoming an ass wipe.

       Why am I cursing so much,  this must be what happens when you are pregnant you curse but still he's my ass wipe and I love him no matter what. I'm tired now so I'm going to sleep so I can stop worrying about how I as a male got pregnant.