The silence in my heart!

Flashback

One sunny day Amber was out with one of her so called friends Kilya who was everybody's sex object. I mean the girl was moving hell of fast to be only 15! Kilya was a sexy red bone thick hips slim waist 5'1 . She got a booty call on our way to school.

I, on the other hand Amber, 💁 im 16 5'2, thick lips, thick hips, little apple booty, and light skinned.. anyways back to the story.

"Okay baby you know i got you .'' Kilya purred.

What the hell is she thinking im not skipping school so she can go get some dick! She got me f*cked up! Now dont get me wrong, I hated school but my mama would kill me if i wasnt at school.

"Kilya i know damn well you aint tryna miss school to get some funky ass dick! " I said rolling my eyes .

"Amber live a little! Stop being so up tight get yo panties out yo ass we wont even be that late for school."

'"I just got a bad feeling Kilya. This is not going to go good and you know its not! My mama is going to kill me if she finds out! Damn man you always getting me into some shit ! " I snapped at her .

''Amber stop being so damn up tight live a little damn yo mom's want even find out you know i got you boo i just need a little D to fill me up" She said with a smirk. "C'mon please?'' , kilya begged..

I looked at her like this bitch has lost her damn mind! My mama got motherfuckers watching me all over for me so i know in 5.10 seconds motherfuckers gone be calling her telling her i'm not at school so i know this was a bad idea from the jump. Kilya snapped her fingers in my face bringing me out of my thoughts''.

"Damn bitch i know you hear me talking to you Amber!"

"What ?" I rolled my eyes '' Damn i hear you i'm just thinking about some shit"

"Like what Amber ?" Kilya snapped.

"Like none of yo damn business! Where he stay at man? ''

''On the east side" kilya said, with a slick smile.

Damn I know a fine ass dude that stay out there they call em Lil Tootie . He's about 6'1 kind of dark skinned built thick juicy ass lips owee he could ... 😩😩😫😫😫

"Amber what the fuck is up with you ? '' Kiyla asked.

"Nothing is we gone walk or what? I'm already scared as shit'' (I rolled my neck).

' Yea c'mon follow me !'' she snapped rolling her eyes

I just looked at the her side ways😕

20 mins later we came to this ugly green house and they are filthy!!!😷😷

Kilya knocked on the door. He opened the door..

Wassup mommy! cmon lets go to the back i know yo friend have school" he laughs with a mocking voice.

You fat stanky bitch! i think as i roll my eyes..

I see Lil Tootie the,biggest drug lord starring me down. Owwwee he so damn sexy! I can just lord!

"Hey ma"said lil tootie.

"Hey Lil Tootie" i blush..

"damn everybody know my name dont it?" He said with a laugh.

"Yes you're like the shit in these streets, ''.

"oh yea ma?" He asked with a cocked eyebrow ,"i know alot of motherfuckers envy me''

'So what grade are you ma ?''

''Well i'm in the tenth what about you ?'' i look down at my feet.

'' I'm in the 11th ma aye but you know you so c...'' Before he could finish my phone starts to ring cutting him off .

'' Oh shit !'' I yell looking panicked 😱😱

"what ma ?'' He asks.

"It's my mom. Somebody saw us over i'm in deep trouble man '' I answer the phone "Hello?''

''where the fuck you at cause you aint at school you know if I have to beat yo ass again you gone get yo shit and move the fuck out of my shit !''

''Ma i'm not''. Before i could explain i heard the dial tone. Wow she hung up on me . running upstair i bang on the door to the room kilya in.

''KILYA! BITCH STOP FUCKING MY MAMA CALLED SHE'S KNOWS IAN AT SCHOOL!'' She runs to the front half naked .

"When did she call?''

'' Just then duhh Thot !'' i snapped back . Before we could contuine arguing we heard loud banging on the door.

My heart beat so fast cause i knew it was my mama at the door . The knocks got louder and louder. I was scared ass fuck. Why did this have to happen ? She's going to kill me! I dont know which way to run or hide should i run or hide? I was breathing so fast i almost fell out. Amber what the fuck is wrong with you ? This is not the time to be falling out and shit !

"ok ok man help us out of this shit since we at your crib Chris" Kiyla asked.

"Man i cant help you on the real. Im sorry yall gone have to get the fuck out now" Chris said shaking his head

''Man Chris' how the fuck you gone do them like that when you just fucked her friend man you a low down ass motherfucker" Lil Tootie said shaking his head. I know he saw me crying. How could he even want me now. I look a mess over here.

"Man ok i'll help yall damn man go hide in the back!"

I heard her mama yelling about putting me out and it made me cry harder. why in the hell didnt i just go to school? Chris opened the door.

"Hey. May i help you ? ''

"Yea where Amber? I know she's here dude next door just told me he saw two young girls walking in this fucking house play dumb motherfucker i'll call the police ! " She snapped.

''Damn man aye Amber and Kiyla yall gotta roll ain going to jail for nobody get out my house" Chris yelled to us from the door.Out the corner of my eye i saw Lil Tootie shake his head. I really dont give a shit he acting like he like one of them lil hoes . We came from the back and left .

Mom i'm ...''

"Save that bullshit ima beat yo ass and you going to stay with your grandma and im taking that damn phone matter of fact give it here ! " she snapped.

We got in the house she beat my ass with a cord i wasn't even crying. She whooped me so much it didnt even hurt me .

''Pack yo shit yo grandma on the way. '',

"Shit" i mumble. How i can be so dumb man it's boring ass fuck out there in the county man damn.

''Where her fast ass at? " I heard my grandma yelling. DAMN!

''So why was you at then mannish ass boys house now u gotta move with me. Why Amber? '' She asks as she sits on my bed

"It wasn't my fault it was kilya doing it with Chris ." I explain.

''So you gone be a nut case and follow her ? How dumb can you be Amber ? What was going through your damn mind? '' She asks concerned.

" I uh I dont know. i never thought about my actions. I'm sorry" Tears rolled down my eyes. I was so mad at Kilya. She always getting me into some of her bullshit cause her mama dont give a fuck about what she do.(FLASHBACK OVER)

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