Taking Care Of Crazy. || an ii AU

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I stay quiet as microphone leads me up to her room since candle needs to move some of her stuff in, I look at the ground and try close out the noises of everyone, I hate too many people talking at the same time..it hurts my god damn ears! We reach her room and sit down on her bed, microphone looks at me and pats my head "mic I told you, don't do that unless necessary.." I say, quietly, I don't like hearing myself. "Well since I'm going to be taking care of you, you have to listen to me, after all I am the grown up.." Microphone giggles as she pats my head again, I dont mind it, I just say I do.
"Stop that.." I replied back and grabbed her hand off. "Finee, when candle gets here were gonna have to clean you up with water" she says, I hiss like a cat and she looks at me "I HATE WATER ITS TOO COLD! I am NOT letting you clean me with that freezing cold water! NOR WITH WARM OR HOT! I CAN CLEAN MYSELF!" I raised my voice and move a bit for dramatic features, microphone looks at me with a frown "taco you..are you..ok? Is there a reason you get that aggressive when almost being touched? And well..being taken care of?" She asks me, the question getting into my mind, I stay silent for a moment. "I don't know anymore, and yeah, there is, but i..i dont want to think about it anymore" I mumble "..do you want anything to eat to make you feel better? I'll make you tea with it." She says, I think she understands "sure..can you get me some chocolate?" I reply with a small smile, she nods and leaves the room, I stay sitting, but after some seconds I get bored and get up, I'll just go to the bathroom to evily fill the toothpaste with water, I start doing that but stop as I notice the mirror.
I look at myself and frown, I'm never getting used to who I am now,
Everything I did was for nothing,
They were right, calling me all those names in season one, I'm stupid, useless, annoying and nothing,
I don't deserve this, I never did or do deserve another chance,
I should leave,
I know I don't belong here.
I snap out of my thoughts noticing tears in my eyes.
I slap myself in the face and wipe them,
After all I'm not supposed to cry, who would care anyways.
I walk out of the bathroom and open the window, it's pretty high from up here, but why would anyone care if I got hurt.
I stand ontop the window until something pulls me inside the room
"TACO WHAT WERE YOU DOING? WERE YOU GOING TO JUMP?? DO YOU KNOW HOW HIGH THAT IS?? YOU COULD'VE BEEN HURT!" microphone says in a raised voice and hugs me..i hate those thoughts, there are people who care about me and my feelings, and I'm with those people.
"I'm sorry" I whispered under my breath, microphone looks at me "taco why were you going to do that? Is something wrong??" Microphone asks "I had some..overwhelming thoughts..I guess I just listened to them and..I'm sorry.." I reply in a quiet tone, "taco..if something like that happens again go and try find me or candle or the both of us if it's really bad, we will help you,ok? If you ever need to talk you have us.." She replied back in a calm tone and hugged me again, I try not to cry but I let myself, I'm not listening to those bad thoughts..they care about me..I know they do..
I hug back, the room going slowly darker and darker.
I feel so comfortable while hugging..
I yawn and fall asleep.