This was a poem my best friend wrote before she left us. she was always a special daisy, and i loved her to bits <3 she asked me to post this because she wanted to leave something of hers with me to share with you guys before she left, so of course, i put it up for her. before you read it, i just want to ask that you dont judge. she was going through a lot, and didnt like to talk about it with anybody but me. by asking me to do this, she's putting a lot out there, even if i never give you her name. if you know me, you know who wrote this.
A lot of the time, I don't write down what's really going on
I don't say what I really feel
When somebody asks me how I'm doing, I fake a smile
"I'm okay" "I'm good" "Doin' great!"
If I say I'm not okay, I'll just be admitting it to myself that I've given up hope
I don't lie to hurt people
I don't lie because I don't trust my friends
I do trust my friends
At least, the real ones
But sometimes it's hard for me to admit the truth
And admit what's really going on
I don't lie to push people away
I lie because it's safe
I lie
I won't deny it
I do
I try to fake it til I feel it
Or just fake it in general
Because I try to make myself believe the lies I tell the world
I want to be hopeful
Some people cut to ease their pain
I lie to ease the truth
Because sometimes, the truth hurts
It can hurt like hell
Sometimes, the truth is hard
So I lie
A lot
And I'm sorry
