Until Forever Falls Apart

Chapter One: Sophia

I graduate in a month, and even though I've been trying to get over Lake Hardy Pittman my whole life, I'm not there yet. This month is all i have left to redeem my whole high school career as the girl who is stuck on the guy who is four years older than her, and also pays her no attention. I did not intend for my high school years to go this way, but it just happened, thanks to my lovely best friend Tallen who cannot keep his mouth shut to save his life. It started freshman year when Dean Haggan asked me to go out. I was having a great time so was he, everything was great, until he tried to kiss me. It did not go well, due to the fact I wanted my first kiss to be with Lake I started freaking out and left him there all alone outside the movie theater. I called my mom to come get me and that was the end of that, of all guys in general, because I actually told Tallen why I freaked out. 

Then he told Dean to help him feel better about his wounded ego, "It's Ok man it's nothing personal she's just stuck on a guy way older than her." 

Tallen thinking he had done both of us a favor had consequently ruined my dating life forever. After that no one asked me on a date, and i understood why. I was glad though because it gave me more time to plan out exactly how I was going to get Lake to fall in love with me.

Now that I'm older I can see why that may have been an issue, and maybe I should have gotten counseling, who knows. I just know if it would have been shut down early, I would not have to be using my last month of senior year getting over him. Currently I'm at a party, I'm not supposed to be at because if my mom knew she would murder me. I'm supposed to be at Tallen's house, because he's such a wonderful influence, at least my mother thinks so. This party was supposed to get my mind off Lake, all it has done is make me wish he was here. I think it is so funny I think things like that, even though I've never actually hung out with him. I can only imagine what it would be like to be at a party with him, if he would actually go to one. Lake is a particular type of person simply put, he does what he wants, when he wants.

At this point you may think I'm a very silly little girl who knows nothing about him and needs to grow out of her silly little obsession with him. I completely agree, that's why I decided the next cute guy that walks by will help me complete my mission. I'm so immersed in my thoughts that when someone bumps into me, I spill my drink all over myself. "Are you kidding me", I say, wiping myself off and looking at the culprit. I suck in a deep breath when I do, I'm staring straight into the very eyes I've been trying so hard to forget, ironic huh? For a minute I don't think he recognizes me, then he tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, and looks at me the way he looked at me for the first time in sixth grade, and hugs me.

"GOPHER I MISSED YOU", he says sloppily, placing a kiss on my forehead. I'm mortified. All of my family calls me gopher, thanks to my sister's husband Keith. It started in eighth grade, which is when Lake decided he could speak to me again. Keith didn't think Sophie fit me anymore and since then I've been Gopher. I want to cry, scream, laugh, and jump for joy all at the same time. He looked at me the way I crave in my dreams, but it's overshadowed by how drunk he is, so I know it's not real. It never is with him.

"Hey Lake" I said angry, because I am, he just ruined my night. 

"Aww Sophie is upset, come on, cheer up, have a drink." 

"Shut up Lake," I say, shoving him hard, as I walk outside to the porch.

 I'm angry, more than angry I'm furious. My whole night has been ruined, possibly my whole week, maybe my whole month. I love Lake, but I don't want to, not anymore. I want to be free from the talons he has lodged in my back.

I'm also mad at myself, because I'm happy he's here. I wanted to jump into his arms and kiss him everywhere and not stop. Also because I love the way he looks at me, and how much I love his touch even if it was so small. And the way he always seems to see through me. But he was drunk and he won't remember, not that it was anything significant to remember. I'm sitting on the steps of the Parker's porch. Thinking about how pretty their house is, I always wonder how they let their son wreck it every weekend. I also don't understand why their son throws parties that he doesn't even bother to show up to most of the time. His name is Graycen and he's actually pretty cool, he is older than me by a year.