TALE OF MY LOST LOVE....the most beautiful Love story that never lasted

A better me for you

"Mama bakiyi bacci ba?" Jawad asked as he sauntered into the living room carrying his laptop bag

"It's quite late though" he checked his watch

"Not really"

"Don't tell me you were waiting for me???"

"Oh please don't get too excited I wasn't sleepy shi yasa banyi bacci ba"

He chuckled

"I will get your food for you"

"Nooo I will freshen up first"

"Alright toh I will wait for you"

"Mama leave all of that I can get my food,just go to bed and get some rest...it's way past your bedtime"

"This is the only time I can get to talk to you,you have been avoiding me lately"

"Why will I avoid you??? Just busy with work and you know that"

"Jawad for how long will you keep your feelings bottled up, I have told you several times to share your pain,stop this habit of dealing with things alone,it's breaking you,just look at your face,you are exhausted"

"Mama ba komai"

"What happened between you and Manal?"

"Nothing much,we just talked" he shrugged

"It didn't like you two just talked....what really happened?"

"Mama nothing happened just normal talk"

She took his hand

"I am your mother Jawad and you have no idea how seeing you like this is making me feel,you are the only son I have,what am I supposed to do with myself if you are this broken?? Talk to me at least,let me share the burden with you,sharing pain doesn't make one weak,it will make things easier"

"Mama the truth is I have messed things up,wallahi Manal ko magana ma bata so na mata"

"Why??? Is there something you are not telling me???" She asked concerned

He looked down and was quiet

"You did something wrong?" She lifted his chin from the look on his face she knows he really did mess things up

"Ranan da zan je gida in gaida parents inta was the day Baba got shot so ban samu na tafi ba and then one thing or the other de bamu samu munyi magana ba ranan and then the next day I had an accident,after I woke up from coma I broke up with her because I somehow felt I wasn't good enough for her...." He paused

"Manaly didn't even know about my accident she didn't know why I broke up with her...not until recently"

"And you thought it will be in her best interest so you didn't even feel the need to discuss it with her or even inform her about what happened"

"Mama I was on a wheelchair I didn't want to be a burden on her"

"What do you mean burden??? You two weren't even married so you are not even her responsibility and besides you two were in love with each other where does burden come from???"

"Mama ko ba wannan ba I didn't want her to give up on her dreams"

"Look at you giving excuses to justify your wrongs"

"I am not justifying what I did I am just stating the reasons,Mama Manaly was really excited to go to Chicago for a baking program I didn't want to ruin that"

"What if you were part of that dream??? Did you ever think about that?"

Jawad was quiet

"That was an egocentric decision Jawad, I have always warned you about this,you shouldn't decide on people's behalf,you don't get to decide for everyone,stop being the greater guy"