Me & Him♡

Are You Insane?

~Starting from elise's P.O.V.~

I started thinking about the conversation me and Kieth just had. I started to ask myself .  Are you insane!? wtf are you doing!  I keep repeating this to myself. I looked in the review mirror to see if my sisters are okay. They had fallen asleep. ugh. they looked like little angels. I feel bad. They have to live in this hell hole. those are like my baby's . I have to look after them. I can't be worried about dating. ugh. wtf have I just done... why did I say that to kieth. I should have just pushed him away like all the other nigga's. Once we arrived home I hurried and woke up the oldest and I carried the youngest in the house. I started yelling for my mom. But I got no response. I was already late for work and I needed her to watch HER kids. "mom!" I yelled this time. but still no response. I was starting to get worried. so I turned on some cartoons for the girls and ran to her bedroom and what I found was...

She want's me to stop selling drugs. I can't. I am Completely capable. But that's the only time I feel I can take care of myself. The only time I feel like a Man. Like I Don't need anybody. If I Stop Then That Means, The Money stops. But If I do, I can avoid any charges and a hella of a lot of trouble . Man Ain't this some shit. I don't know how to take this. I Gotta talk to my provider , and all es shit. Make sure he has his product and his money. This Nigga has Killed People before. and i'm sure he's not afraid to do it again. I Really want her, but is she worth the trouble. My Mind is telling me No. But My heart Is saying Hell Yes. God, She makes me tight. She would make this more complicated then it has to be. But that's another reason why I like her, She lets me know wassup. and I need a bad chick like her by my side.

I walked into her room. And what I found. Was painfully, it was a serveral punches in the face. It was Nothing. Absoulutly Nothing. Her room was empty. I ran over to her closet panicing it was empty then I ran to the dresser and opened it to find nothing Several letters all with the same thing on them. To My Daughter, My Heart , My world, Elise. I Broke down crying. What could possibly be in the letters. I ripped open the one on the top. And what it said was unbelievable. It said: Dear, Elise. You Are my Pride And Joy and I Don't know How many Times i've Written this letter. But This is the last one i'll ever write. Remember when we went to the doctor and they said I had liver damage ? Well when you where in the bathroom he told me that there were traces of drugs lingering in my blood. And that they would call CPS. I couldn't risk letting them know where I live so I put a fake address on the paperwork. If your reading this it means I left... I didn't know what else to do. I need you to be strong for your little sisters okay? In the envelop under this one is Some Money . Don't ask Where I got it from. And please don't try and call me, or contact me in anyway. I'm don't want to come back. im a horrible mother. and a horrible person. You where always there to help me and you've always been better at taking care of your sisters, I also Put 3 Fake Birth Certificates in there and an ID for you. I Have arranged a house for you guys. I Need you to move quickly. CPS is never off my trail. I moved you to another area and district. I need you to register the girls in another school and  The Women Who you have for Your household is who will be registered  as your mom. she has everything ready and all the things she needs, she cannot leave if she does call this number (555) 555- 6565. She also can't boss you around but has been told to Make sure your sisters are in bed by 9:30 if You aren't home. We have You registered for food stamps. So you won't have to worry about food. And i'm sorry you have to quit your job. But I also got you a cell phone. it's a Samsung Galaxy S3. You'll find out more information when you get there. Please Don't let A lot of people know where you are but I know you have friends so you can give them your number, it's 555-6946. Please be careful. I Love You. Love always, Mom.

I Laid Down and Began Thinking about What I could do to make my situation less complicated . but I came up with nothing. I'm fucked. God I got a thing for her. Ima try. for her.