Honkai Simulator, Is It Me You're Looking For? [Fan-Translation]

Chapter 60 Against Fate, Aponia's Kiss

【Aponia talked to you a lot. After you spent several months winning her trust and expressing your understanding, she seems to have finally found someone to confide in. 】

【She considers herself a sinner, and your claim to be an "accomplice" subtly suits her needs. When she talks to you, there is even a hint of joy in her voice. 】

【She told you about her "Gift from God" she received when she was a child, her ability to see the thread of fate clearly with her eyes, and persuade others to obey her. 】

【You find that compared to yourself, the current Aponia actually doesn't know much about her own power, and she even has some rejections and resistance. She has been living in this huge ambivalence. 】

【This kind of power puts a heavy psychological burden on the kind-hearted Alponia. She thinks that a mission was given by God, so she works hard to help those who have a tragic fate, hoping that their lives can be changed. 】

【Her precepts are the means to change a person's fate—but the fact is that this method has little effect. 】

【However, Aponia never gave up. After countless attempts since she was a child... she became a little paranoid. 】

In the confessional room of the church of the nursing home, in a small room, a plump nun was sitting in front of a thin little boy, holding his hand, pressing it on her plump chest, slowly telling the story of her past.

Although the words "church", "little boy", "mature nun" and "confessional room" are linked together, it is easy to think of something very hellish about eating or making a child, but Gao Qi expressed the conscience of heaven and earth, really nothing happened.

Well, actually, he wouldn't mind if something happened, but pure Aponia couldn't have thought of those things.

She just... slowly talked about her life so far, and everyone who was influenced and changed by her.

"I... saw the fate of many people, and even reminded them, but they were either terrified or didn't believe it. I also persuaded many people and changed their minds, but in the end, it would lead them to their demise."

Lowering her eyes sadly, Aponia put Gao Qi's little hand on her left chest, hoping that he could feel her heart.

But unfortunately, the barrier of her heart is too thick and soft. Gao Qi can't even feel the slightest heartbeat, but can only feel warmth and softness. He wanted to take his hand away embarrassedly, but Aponia didn't feel anything shy in the face of a child. Instead, she pressed his little hand down hard.

"I... selfishly brought the children to a nursing home, and used words to arouse their hope of surviving, but their fate has not changed, and I can't cure their diseases. I can already see that their line of fate is about to break."

Speaking out her most painful and tangled troubles, Aponia's beautiful face was full of entanglements and wavering.

"I...maybe I'm just deceiving myself and doing it for my own satisfaction. I can't really change their fate. Instead, I imprison them in this small nursing home."

Looking at the little boy in front of him who was quietly listening to her words, Aponia actually didn't expect him to understand much.

"If the recent rumors are correct, the gathering of those infected with the Honkai Sickness will actually accelerate their death—am I really, on the right path?"

In fact, even as an adult, these problems make Alponia at a loss. She just needs someone to talk to, someone to tell her that no one understands, no one approves, and is bored since she was born.