percy jackson fanfics

Broken Percy x Broken Reader

"Do you really want to be with me?"

Your question rings through his head.

"It's going to be really hard...There's going to be a lot of obstacles and shit to deal with, not to mention the uphill battles."

"You mean dealing with your family and friends?" He smirked. "I'm not worried about them."

You snorted, somewhere between ridicule and sarcasm. "Sure you aren't--"

"I'm not," he tried to reassure you but you ignored him.

"I was talking about myself." You eyed him sceptically. "I'm not well Percy". The person who's going to give you the most trouble, who's going to make a relationship so tricky is me."

His sharp eyes scrutinized you as he listened.

"I'm not an easy-going person...or easy for most people to get along with, either...And I'm not sure you're really ready or willing to deal with that...

"With all of me."

"You say that like I'm a fully functioning human being without flaws," he replied dryly.

You had trouble meeting his eye. "I'm not saying or implying anything about you, Percy. I'm only telling you that there's no glamour or glory in being with me. I'm...broken."

You gave him a fleeting glance. "And I don't know if I'll ever work right."

The conversation replays over and over in his mind. The dull tone of your voice, and the way the air around you seemed to dim as you tried to explain what he was getting himself into.

As if you could have prepared him for this.

For being with you.

As if you could have prepared him for years of swinging on an emotional pendulum.

Yes...you had been honest about how hard it would be. How you would give him more trouble and stress than anyone else. Maybe even more than everyone else in his life combined but

you lied.

You lied.

Because while you told him all of this you didn't tell him everything else.

How you would never try to erase his pain or disappointment but walk through them with him, at his side. That you would love him, forgive him when he apologized and laugh together just as often as you cried, if not more.

You lied.

You fucking lied.

You made it seem like loving you was going to be more trouble than it was worth and you were wrong. It was worth every fight, every tear, and every moment of struggle outweighed immeasurably by the glow of love and belonging that lit up his life solely because of you. Tied to you so that he could no longer be whole without you. As if he had never been whole before.

You were right that you are your own worst enemy but it makes him your best ally. The person who'll drown out all the voices of insecurity and self-deprecation inside you repeatedly. Who'll patiently weather whatever storm rolls through you and hunt you down from the dark depths of your own mind to bring you back to life over and over again?

"Do you really want to be with me?"

Your words echo through his mind like part of you has slipped into him, the 'broken' part and, more often than not, it makes him smile.

He likes the idea of taking this negative part of you off your shoulders and locking it away where it can't hurt you anymore.

"Do you really want to be with me?"

Because no matter how often he hears the question in his mind-

"Do you really want to be with me?"

For Percy,

the answer will always be yes