Finding Peace

Taking A Chance

I close my eyes and I still picture you
Wishing time can go back
Just to hold you again
Just to love you again
I'm here
Taking a chance on life once again
So many nights
Sue a side was on my mind
So many nights I didn't care
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
So many nights I dissed the man up above for doing this
Again... fucking again...
Here I am once again
Where I said I wouldn't be anymore or else I'd take my life
I see them and I can't do it
I see them and I take a chance for them
They keep me going
They keep me sane
So fucken fucked in the head
At times I can't even think straight
I still close my eyes and I see you
I still wish I could hold you again
I still wonder what could've been
I'm taking a chance on life again
It feels so fucken wrong
So many days I felt guilty for living
So many days I felt sick cause I was finally living
I'm finally living...
I'm not stuck in the past anymore...
It's not August 2020 anymore..
I'm finally in the present
Wondering how the fuck did I make it this far
I was on survival mode
Walking earth without a trance
I still cry for you
I still want you with me
But I'm taking a chance
Taking a chance
Taking a chance
To be
To finally be ...
Happy....
It felt impossible to be happy
But I've had more good days than bad lately
Sue a side is still on my mind
But it's been less and less
I'm taking a chance for you
My little angels
Taking a chance on finding my peace now...

-Gigglesz'

1/28/2023